weird in the spectral realm.”
“Well, it looks like I’ve managed to get my way out of another reading,” I said. “Can we try again?”
His face went a shade of pink. “We’ll get it eventually.”
As I was on my way out the door, I paused and said, “Thanks again for coming with me today. Er, to the meeting, I mean. And, yeah.” I grinned and Kole laughed, and a tingling afterglow of that intense connection I’d felt to him glittered inside of my chest. I waved and hurried down the stairs to the street, unable to wipe the smile off my face.
11 Kole
What had happened?
The question hadn’t left my mind since the night before, and I relived the memory of what we’d done over and over again, trying to eke out every last detail of what it’d felt like to take him into my mouth and give him pleasure. I’d felt everything I was doing to him as if it were happening to me, and I could only guess that it was because of my special ability to pull a person with me into the spectral realm. But to have such an intense connection…it’d never happened before. It was like our minds had joined and become one. Everything that I’d tried to subdue, like my attraction to him, had been wrestled to the surface and taken hold of me—and him, too.
I was eager to try it again with him. I didn’t just want to get his reading finished—now I wanted to know the limits of what we’d experienced. And I wanted to feel him again.
As long as we continued like this, not a relationship, just experimenting, then it would be fine. I wasn’t doing anything wrong—at least, I was pretty sure I wasn’t.
My day was clear of appointments at the agency, and I daydreamed my way through it despite all efforts to concentrate. I couldn’t even make it through my meditations and animal poses without my thoughts drifting back to the night before. I really wanted to see him again, and to do more with him…
An excited chill went through my body, and I went to the bookshelf in the divination chamber and looked for something that would help me. I kept a couple of books on pleasure for those moments when I needed to give advice on a subject I knew nothing about, and now I needed to do some brushing up for myself. I found one and pulled it down.
“The Art of the Knot,” I read, cracking the book open. I hungrily pored over it, wondering what I could try on him. I never realized being with an alpha could be so much fun. There was so much that could be done.
And there was so much he could do to me, too.
I sighed and laid back onto the furs, clutching the book against my chest. Markos liked me. Markos wanted me. Had he felt this way about me the entire time? If he had, I hadn’t noticed. I was hopelessly blind to these things. So completely clueless.
There was a knock on the back door, and I sat up with a start. Elise, I thought, suddenly remembering what time it was. I’d gotten so distracted, I’d forgotten she was going to be stopping by.
“Good afternoon,” I said, opening the door.
She came inside and put her backpack against the wall. “What’s that?” she asked, pointing to the book sitting on the middle of the floor. I quickly snatched it up and put it inside my desk.
“Boring stuff,” I said. “Book work. How was school?”
“Good,” she said, sitting on the floor. “Kole, you’ll never believe it. Lupin and I are friends! He knows I gave him the book, and he said he likes it a lot. He actually knows who I am now. Oh, I wonder if he likes me… What should I do, Kole? What should I do next?”
“Oh, I don’t know,” I said as I went to boil water for tea. “You could tell him how you feel?”
“Don’t be silly. I couldn't do that.”
“Why not?”
“Because!” She jumped to her feet and paced around the room, pausing to open one of the supply drawers. “I’m going to put together some incense, ‘kay?”
“Sure,” I said. “Well, maybe you could… I don’t know. Write him a note? A letter?”
“You mean a love letter?” she asked, her eyes sparkling. “Maybe I could. A secret one, with hints. Maybe he could figure out that I’m in love with him.”
The kettle whistled and I turned off