I chuckled to myself and let my hand travel down the front of my body, teasing my nipples for just a moment before proceeding towards my erection. I took hold, and before I knew it, I was indulging. Pleasure radiated through me, unlocking all kinds of unexpected thoughts from deep corners of my subconscious, things I normally never would’ve fantasized about.
I imagined pushing Markos onto the ground in my divination chamber, then climbing up his body to sink myself onto his length. What would it feel like to have an alpha inside of me?
I explored with my other hand and pushed a finger into my hole. I’d only done this to myself a couple of times before, and I wasn’t used to taking anything inside. I tried a second finger, but couldn’t manage it. How could anyone take a full thing inside of them? It just didn’t seem possible. It’d never seemed very appealing to me—until right now.
As I pushed upwards with my finger against my spot, a surge of intense pleasure rolled outwards from my groin and reached the tip of every extremity and the impact of my sudden climax just about sent me into the stars.
My cock throbbed in my hand, my orgasm faded, and I slowly returned to reality. I let out a long breath, sunk deeper into the tub, and let the water cover my ears so I heard nothing but my rapid heartbeat and the clunking of the water.
It’s okay to feel this way, I told myself. The rules said that I couldn’t be mated.
And that would never happen. I wasn’t in any danger of violating my oath.
What would happen if I did? I’d never given it much thought… Professor Lightpaw had said that sacrificing love would keep my special abilities strong. But if I didn’t, would that mean they’d completely vanish? Or diminish?
My heart continued to thud against my chest.
“It’s okay,” I said, reassuring myself. “I’ll never get to that point, anyway. What’s happening now doesn’t change anything.”
I drained the bath, stepped out into the cool night air, and wrapped a towel around my waist. For now, all I needed to think about was the reading I was going to do for him. I’d done thousands of them before, none of them special, noteworthy, or anything more than me executing my skills. But this one, though it was no different than any other, had me excited. What was that vision that had been so strong it’d managed to interfere with another reading? Who was the mystery person in Markos’s future?
I spent most of Sunday needlessly tidying the office and divination chamber, even though I’d already taken care of it just a few days ago. I checked the clock over and over, then began setting up the incense, divination papers, and otherwise bringing the room up to the proper atmosphere.
Markos was going to be over in the evening, and it couldn’t come fast enough. Was the cause of my excited restlessness doing the reading or getting to see him again? I couldn't say. Maybe it was both. I finished with the incense and flitted over to the sitting furs to fluff them up, and then flopped onto them to give them a little test, just to make sure they were nice and comfortable. I needed to relax, clear my head a bit. I flipped onto my belly, shut my eyes and let myself shift into wolf form, and then transitioned into the bear pose to try and chill out a little bit.
Normally, doing these energy poses blew away all distracting thoughts and allowed me to narrow in on stillness, but my mind immediately went to a memory from last night. After fixing my glasses, Markos and I had stayed on the balcony for a bit, just talking and enjoying the moon. We’d discussed our childhoods, which was a topic I hardly ever found a reason to bring up with anyone, but for some reason, it just flowed out like it was the most normal thing to speak about. He told me about his parents and how they’d failed him and his brother, how his father had been unfaithful to his mother, and how during the times they weren’t absent, all they would do was criticize him for his failures and struggles in school.
I could relate to Markos’s journey to prove himself. I shared my story with him, about how near-impossible expectations were put on me because of my gifts for divination and having been accepted