chorus or anything yet. You can write your own words."
"I can do words." Words were the first thing I'd gotten back. There were notebooks full of scrawl underneath the bed, filled with all my new secrets. New songs about the deep.
Pearl had an adapter in one hand. She was looking around for my stereo.
"I broke it," I said sadly.
"Your Bang and Olufsen? That's a drag." She frowned. "Say, you didn't throw it out the window, did you?"
I giggled. "No, silly. Down the stairs." I reached out my hand. "Come here. We can share."
She paused for a moment, glancing back at the door.
"Don't worry. Luz went downstairs already." She was working in the kitchen now, preparing my nighttime botanicas. I could hear the rumble of water through the pipes and smell garlic and mandrake tea being strained. "She trusts you enough not to listen in."
"Oh. That's good, I guess." Pearl put the adapter back in her pocket and took a step closer, the Vile Thing leering at me from her hand.
"But you have to put that thing down," I said, waving one hand.
She paused, and I could smell her start to sweat again.
"Don't you trust me, shiny Pearl?" I squinted up at her. "You know I would never eat you."
"Um, yeah." She swallowed. "And that's really non-threatening of you, Minerva."
I smiled again at the sound of my own name, and Pearl smiled back, finally believing how much better I was. She knelt, placing the Vile Thing carefully on the floor, like it might explode.
Taking a deep breath, she began to cross the room with measured steps. Zombie padded away as she grew closer, and I smelled the catnip on Pearl's shoes. That's why he was being so edgy. She smelled like his old toys, which he hated these days.
He went over to sniff the Vile Thing, which suddenly had turned into just some old doll. It looked lifeless and defeated there on the floor, not nearly as vile as it had been.
More relief flowed through me. Just the thought of singing was making me stronger. Even the shiny candlelight didn't seem so jagged.
Pearl sat next to me on the bed, the music player in her hand glowing now. I saw the apple shape on it and flinched a little, remembering that I had thrown something out the window - eighty gigs of music that smelly boy had given me.
Pearl reached across, pushing my hair back behind one ear with trembling fingers. I realized how greasy it was, even though Luz made me shower every single Saturday.
"Do I look horrible?" I asked quietly. I hadn't seen myself in... two months, if it was August.
"No. You're still beautiful." She grinned, putting one earphone in her own ear. "Maybe a little skinny. Doesn't Luz feed you?"
I smiled, thinking of all the raw meat I'd eaten for lunch. Bacon cold and salty, the strips still clinging together, fresh from between plastic. And then the chicken whose neck I'd heard Luz wring in the backyard, its skin still prickly from being plucked, its living blood hot down my throat. And still I was hungry.
As Pearl leaned forward in the Apple glow, I saw the pulse in her throat, and the beast inside me growled.
Mustn't eat Pearl, I reminded myself.
She gave the other earphone to me, and I put it in. We looked into each other's eyes from a few inches away, tethered by the split white cord. It was strange and intense - no one but Luz had dared get this close to me since I'd bitten that stupid doctor.
I could smell coffee on Pearl's breath, the clean sweat of summer heat, the separate scent of fear. Her pupils were huge, and I remembered that to her eyes, my room was dark. My life was spent in shadows now.
There was a hint of moisture between her upper lip and nose, in that little depression the size of a fingertip. I leaned forward, wanting to lick it, to see if it was salty like the bacon had been...
Then she squeezed the player, and music spilled into me.
It started abruptly - a rough edit, not even on the downbeat - but the riff was too gutsy to care. One guitar rumbled underneath, simple as a bass part, someone playing with three untutored fingers. Another guitar played up high, full of restless and cluttered energy, seductively neurotic.
Neither was Pearl, I could tell.
Then she entered on keys, spindly and thin but fitting perfectly. She was even leaving room for me,