not going to say no to a date with a beautiful woman, am I? I’m not stupid.”
“Okay.” I could feel myself smiling slightly at the fact that he called me beautiful. At least I knew he didn’t think I was ugly. “Well, you know, I’m not exactly looking to get married myself right away, but I would like to know that the person I date is on the same page with what he’s looking for. So I guess we’re not looking for the same thing.”
“I know, and I owe it to you to be honest, and that’s why I’m being honest. We haven’t progressed physically in our relationship. And if we do, I want you to know where I’m coming from.”
“Okay,” I laughed slightly. “Are you crazy? Do you really think that we’re going to have any sort of physical relationship now? You just told me that you’re not looking for monogamy.”
“No, that’s not what I said. I said, I’m not looking for marriage.”
“Okay, same difference. Are you looking to be monogamous with a woman?”
He sighed. “Look, there’s all sorts of relationships out there. And I don’t know that you’re the woman that can sleep with someone that she’s not going to be in a long-term relationship with. But, I want you to know that I would still like to get to know you, I would still like to go on dates and I’m not ruling out the fact that we could be boyfriend and girlfriend. And if that was a monogamous relationship, I would be okay with that. If you also wanted to have an open relationship, I would be okay with that as well. I’m pretty fluid when it comes to relationships.”
“Okay.” I could hear the wheels in my brain turning. “When you say you’re fluid, does that mean that you’re bisexual?” I asked him curiously.
“No,” he chuckled. “I have absolutely no interest in men. I love women.”
“Okay then, so when you say fluid, you just mean that you’re open to different types of relationships with women?”
“Yeah. You know, there’s a lot of fun to be had. I mean, I don’t think I need to convince you of that, right?”
“Well, I’ve definitely had some fun in my life, but I’m not sure we’re talking about the same sort of fun.” I was curious though. What did he engage in and what would he be interested in engaging in? I didn’t want to ask him too many questions because I didn’t want him to think that it was ever going to happen with me because it wasn’t. I was looking for one thing in particular. I wanted to find the man that was going to end up as my husband and have kids with me so I could show my family that ta-da, I do have it together and you don’t need to worry, and let all the fishermen in Greece know, they do not have an American wife coming to take care of them and their parents.
“Hey Gemma, are you still there?” Connor cleared his throat in my ear.
“Yeah, sorry. I was just daydreaming again. I am actually in the bath right now, so...”
“Oh, you’re in the bath, huh? I don’t even have to ask if you’re naked.” His voice dropped.
“No, you don’t have to ask,” I laughed. “I think that’s pretty obvious, right?”
“Oh yeah, I know that’s pretty obvious, but where are your hands right now?”
“What do you mean where are my hands right now?”
“I mean, are you touching yourself?”
“Well, no. One hand is on the phone and I’m sitting up because I’m trying to be very careful not to get it wet.”
“Oh. Say wet again,” he whispered into the phone.
“No, Connor. I’m not going to say that. Did you have anything else to say?” I tried to keep my voice distant from him. He was turning me on, but I didn’t want him to know it.
“You’re still mad at me, aren’t you?” He sighed. “I really grappled with whether or not I should tell you, but I wanted to be honest, especially after your friend Harry made those comments to me earlier. I hope you understand that I’m just...” He growled. “I don’t even know what to say.”
“I understand what you’re saying, but we’re looking for two different things, so I don’t understand why you’re still trying to get sexual with me.”
“So you’re not even going to give me a chance?” He sounded upset.
“Why would I give you a chance? You’re not looking for the same