as her cousin who'd held her in his arms. The boy she'd kissed-of her own free will. She was hoping Julian remembered, too.
She thought he did. He looked intrigued. A strange, sensuous smile curved his lips.
"Willingly?" he repeated, as if testing the word.
"Willingly."
"No ..." Tom whispered.
"Willingly," Jenny repeated, looking only at Julian.
Julian looked charmed-but wary. "You'd have to make a promise-seal the bond. In a way that couldn't be broken."
"Yes."
She could see she'd startled him. He'd expected her to play for time, to argue. Didn't he understand that she'd changed? She raised her eyebrows at him, ironically. "The sooner the better," she said.
Julian blinked, then said slowly, "Beautiful Deirdre can leave, and Audrey. So can Zach and Michael. But Tommy stays. I'll keep him as a hostage for your good behavior."
Looking up at him, Jenny felt her lip twitch, not quite a smile. "I don't think you'll need that. ..."
"All the same."
"All right. It doesn't matter to me." Then, stepping close to him, she spoke quietly, for his ears alone. "Julian, don't you know that I've changed? Can't you see that? I still care about Tom, but... it's not the same. He'd seem tame after you. Anything would seem tame after you."
His eyes widened slightly in fascination.
Jenny took a deep breath. "I probably would have come to you a lot earlier if you'd just straight out asked me. Didn't that ever occur to you? That you could just appear at my front door, no games, no threats, and just ask me?"
He looked disconcerted. "Not exactly. ..."
"You're too cynical. Do you know, I think the way you look at things has made you blind. You've gotten so hardened that you think you have to fight the universe to get what you want. To-sort of wrestle it out of people."
"And-don't I?"
"Not always," Jenny said. Meeting his gaze directly, she said, "Sometimes there's a much simpler solution. There are some things you can't force, Julian, and you can't buy them, either. They have to be given, for free. That's what I want to give you."
His fascination was complete.
"Then promise yourself to me," he said, and with a motion like a sleight-of-hand trick, he held something between his fingers. A gold circlet.
Jenny reached for it automatically, taking it between forefinger and thumb. It was a simple ring, with a design she couldn't quite make out on the outside. Inside the band something was written in fancy script. She tilted the ring toward one of the small lamps.
All I refuse & Thee I chuse, she read.
"Put this on your finger and you're sworn mine," Julian said. "No way to break the promise, no way to change the bond. It's a short ceremony. Do you want to go through with it?"
Chapter 15
"Yes," Jenny said.
Audrey gasped. "Jenny-for God's sake."
Jenny didn't look at her.
Tom made some movement. Jenny didn't look his way, either.
"Jenny ..." Dee whispered. "It's not worth it. I know your promises-you keep them. You'll be trapped. Don't do it for us."
Jenny turned, then. She looked straight into the dark eyes with the slightly amber-tinted whites. "Dee... I'm sorry. I know you don't understand-and I can't explain it to you. But please believe me, I'm staying because I want to. Audrey, can't you understand?"
Audrey slowly shook her copper head, highlights flaring.
"I don't have a lot of real friends," she said. "I don't want to lose you."
"You're going to anyway," Jenny said. "This way is just easier on everyone. And I want to stay. I swear I do."
Dee had been staring at Jenny hard. Now, abruptly, her ebony face went blank. Walled off. Utterly without expression.
"That's right," she said. "You have to look out for number one." She nodded at Jenny, face grim, eyes meeting Jenny's directly. "Go ahead, Sunshine. Good luck."
Jenny nodded back. If it hadn't been manifestly impossible, she would have said the glitter in Dee's eyes was tears.
She turned back to Julian, who took the ring from her.
"A short ceremony," he said again. "Give me your hand."
A stained-glass lampshade threw blue and purple light over him. Jenny gave him her hand, felt that his was as cool as hers.
"Oh, don't," Audrey said, as if involuntarily.
Jenny didn't move.
"Seventeenth-century poesy ring, used to be given as tokens between lovers," Julian explained, holding up the gold circlet. "With the inscription on the inside. It means you refuse all the world except the one who gives it to you. The words touch your skin and bind you with their power."
Jenny smiled at him.
Tom stood slowly, his chains