like a bullet, driving her right down, legs folding, heart slamming, to sit on the steps with her arms wrapped around the box as if it would shield her.
And she could have wept, could have dropped her head down on the box and wept at the instant and uncontrollable terror.
The door was locked, and could stay locked if she needed it to. No one in, no one out. All the pretty birds inside the silver box.
How could she explain to anyone, anyone, the grip of the sudden, strangling fear, the way it set the little white scar on her cheek throbbing like a fresh wound? But the bell would ring again if she didn't answer-hear that, it's ringing again. It would wake Phoebe, and she needed to sleep.
Who was going to protect her baby if she ran away and hid?
So she was not going to cower on the steps; she was not going to allow herself to fear opening the front door, even if she was unable to walk out of it.
She got up, made herself walk to the door, though she did continue to clutch the box in front of her. And the relief made her feel foolish, and a little ashamed, when she saw Duncan on the other side.
Such a nice boy, Essie thought as she took a moment, just one moment more, to get her breath back. A solid, well-mannered young man who'd carried her hurt baby girl up to bed.
There was nothing to be afraid of.
Shifting the box, Essie unlocked the door and beamed a smile.
"Duncan! How nice of you to come by. Look at you, all that rain and no umbrella! Come in the house."
"Let me take that for you."
"No, that's all right. I'm just going to set it down here." She turned as she did, hoped he couldn't see her hands still shaking. "I've got a pickup scheduled for it. How about some coffee?"
"Don't trouble. Hey." He took her hands, so she knew he had seen. "Are you all right?"
"I'm a little on edge, that's all. Foolish."
"Not foolish at all, not after what happened. I've been jumpy myself." No, Essie thought, no, he hadn't. He wasn't the type to jolt at sounds and shadows. But it was sweet of him to say otherwise. "Don't tell Phoebe I said so, but it calms my nerves having a big, strong man in the house."
"Someone else here?" he said and made her laugh. "Secret's safe. I just stopped by to see how the patient's doing."
"She had a restless night." Essie took his arm, steered him into the parlor. "But she's sleeping now. Sit down and keep me company, won't you? Ava's at the flower shop. She works there a couple, three days a week when they can use her. My daughter-in-law's going to come by later. Josie's a nurse, a private-duty nurse. She took a look at Phoebe yesterday, and she's going to stop in later, with Carter, after his classes. And you know why I'm talking so much?"
"Are you?"
"Duncan, I'm so embarrassed by the way I acted yesterday."
"You shouldn't be. You had a shock."
"And I didn't handle it well."
"Essie, you ought to give yourself a break." He saw surprise cross over her face, as if she'd never thought of any such thing. "What've you been up to today?"
"Keeping busy, pestering Phoebe with food on trays until I imagine she wants to knock me over the head with them. I finished a project and made half a dozen lists I don't need."
Little tickled his interest more than the word project. Duncan stretched out his legs, prepared for a cozy chat. "What's the project?"
"Oh, I do needlework." Essie waved a hand toward the foyer, where the shipping box waited for pickup. "Finished up a bedspread-wedding gift-last night."
"Who's getting married?"
"Oh, a sometime customer of mine's goddaughter. I sell some of my pieces locally and over the Internet here and there."
"No kidding?" Enterprising projects doubled the interest. "You've got a cottage industry?"
"More like a sitting-room interest," she said with a laugh. "It's just a way to pay for my hobby, earn a little pin money."
While he sat, at ease, his mind calculated: handmade. Customized. One of a kind. "What kind of needlework?"
"I crochet. My mother taught me, her mother taught her. It was a keen disappointment I could never get Phoebe to sit still long enough to teach her. But Carly's getting a hand at it."
He scanned the room, homed in on the deep blue throw with its pattern of