did anything like that again, he would take out my other eye and my teeth as well. He wanted no more bastards running through the Sanctum. When I could walk again, I went to the Assassin, opened his palm, placed the key to my father’s private meeting chamber in it, and pledged my loyalty. Forever. The next morning my father was dead.”
She stood, pulling back her shoulders, looking drained.
“So if you see me both prod and thwart, Princess, it’s because some days I see the man the Komizar has become, and some days I remember the man he was.”
She turned and walked toward the door, but I called after her just as she opened it.
“Forever is a long time,” I said. “When will you remember who you are, Calantha?”
She paused briefly without responding, then closed the door behind her.
* * *
I had been waiting so long I hardly noticed the door easing open. It was the Komizar. His gaze landed on the dress first, then rose to my face. He closed the door and took another long look.
“It’s about time,” I said.
He ignored my remark, taking his time as he approached. His eyes skimmed over me, touching me in ways that made my cheeks grow hot.
“I think I chose well,” he said. “The red suits you.”
I tried my best to make light of it. “Why, Komizar, are you actually trying to be kind?”
“I can be kind, Lia, if you’ll let me be.” He took a step closer, his eyes molten.
“Shall I call the dressmakers back in?” I asked.
“Not yet,” he said, strolling closer.
“It’s not easy to move in a dress held together with pins.”
“I don’t want you to move.” He stopped in front of me and ran a gentle finger down my sleeve. His chest rose in a deep controlled breath. “You’ve come a long way since the burlap dress you wore on your arrival.”
“That wasn’t a dress. It was a sack.”
He smiled. “So it was.” He reached up and pulled a pin from the dress. The fabric at the shoulder fell loose. “Is that better?”
I bristled. “Save your charming seductions for our wedding night.”
“I was being charming? Shall I take out another pin?”
I took a step back, which I was loath to do, for fear it would encourage him. I tried to change the subject and noticed he had changed into riding clothes. “Isn’t there something you should be doing right now? Somewhere you need to be?”
“No.”
He stepped forward, reaching for another pin, but I hit his hand away. “Are you trying to seduce me or force yourself on me? Since we’ve agreed to be honest with each other, I’d like to know up front so I can decide how to proceed.”
He grabbed my arms, and I winced at the prick of pins in my flesh. He pulled me close and pressed his lips to my ear. “Why do you shower the Assassin with your affections and not your betrothed?”
“Because Kaden has not demanded my affections. He has earned them.”
“Have I not been kind to you, Jezelia?”
“You were kind once,” I whispered against his cheek. “I know you were. And you had a name. Reginaus.”
He pulled away as if I’d thrown cold water on him.
“A real name,” I continued, feeling a rare advantage. “A name given to you by your mother.”
He stepped toward the hearth, his ardor vanished. “I have no mother,” he snapped.
It was evident I had opened one of the few veins of warm blood in his body.
“It would be easy enough for me to believe that was true,” I said. “It seems more likely that you were spawned by a demon and an available knothole. Except that I spoke to the woman who held you as your mother grunted you onto this earth. She said your mother named you with her last breath.”
“There’s nothing special about that, Princess. I’m not the first Vendan whose mother died in childbirth.”
“But it’s a name. Something she gave to you. Why do you refuse to be called by the last word that left your mother’s lips?”
“Because it was a name that meant nothing!” he lashed out. “It gave me nothing! I was only another filthy brat on the streets. I was nothing until I became the Assassin. That name meant something. There was only one name better. Komizar. Why settle for Reginaus, as common as dirt and just as useful, when there’s a name that only one can bear?”
“Is that why you killed the last Komizar? Only for a name?