None of them had posted anything new since I last looked.
Four a.m. That means I’ve been asleep for seven hours straight: conked out in my clothes, without brushing my teeth. And now I can’t get into bed properly and sleep because I’ve done my night already and done it wrong.
I go to the bathroom and turn on the light. Good: there’s a bathtub as well as a shower. And a little bottle of bubble bath lined up alongside the shampoo and conditioner. A long, hot, scented bath should be all I need to make me feel better. And food. Breakfast probably doesn’t start till 6 a.m., but I can’t wait till then. I’m starving.
What time will Lewis Braid get to his office? Seven thirty?
Or not at all, maybe. He might be on his way to the airport to fly to Japan on business, and you’ll have wasted your time and money.
My stomach lurches at the thought. Then I realise it’s not necessarily true. I might be able to find out more with Lewis gone than with him here in Florida. He won’t have warned his colleagues not to tell me anything because it wouldn’t occur to him that I’d turn up. If he’s away on a business trip, I might be able to get his home address from someone if I play it right. I could go to the house, and if Flora’s still here, which she might well be if Lewis wants to keep her well away from me …
Don’t get carried away. Flora might not have been in America when she rang you. Lewis could have rigged it so that it looked as if that was where they were calling from.
They might both be in England.
Then where are seventeen-year-old Thomas and fifteen-year-old Emily? Home alone?
I need to think of a way to make Lewis’s colleagues give me his home address. I searched online in the hope of finding a home address but nothing came up, so my obvious first port of call is Lewis’s workplace, which was easy to find.
I chose this hotel because the offices of VersaNova are only a seven-minute drive away. So close. I try not to let myself believe this means I’m close to getting the answers I want. The more I hope this is nearly over, the more disappointed I’ll be if my trip achieves nothing.
I dial the number for room service and skim-read the menu while I wait for someone to answer. Breakfast doesn’t start till five thirty, so I order a pepperoni pizza from the all-night menu, telling myself that Italians must do it all the time. Then I brush my teeth, run my hands through my hair and wash my face, so that the waiter I’m about to meet won’t mistake me for a scarecrow. The food, when it arrives, is delicious. I sit at the long black desk beneath the large TV screen on the wall, enjoying my early, inappropriate breakfast, and knowing I’d enjoy it more if I didn’t think I might soon be face to face with Lewis Braid.
I’ve witnessed Lewis’s anger a few times. Once in a restaurant, he yelled at a group of women at the next table who were making too much noise, and made such a forceful impression on them that they paid up and left before their main courses had been served – but I’ve never seen him angry with me. Not yet. How will he react when I turn up at his office, uninvited? Will he morph into a monster the way Camilla Hosmer did in Zannah’s low-budget film?
Or maybe he’s a monster already. It’s so easy to believe that the label only fits infamous historical figures and mug-shot faces we see on the news. When it’s someone in our personal life – someone we’ve sat laughing with in a pub, someone who’s punted us down the River Cam singing ‘Sit Down, You’re Rockin’ the Boat’ in a cheesy American accent – it’s hard to believe that their true nature might be monstrous.
I think again about the incident in the restaurant. It happened while we were all still students. Flora and Lewis had only been an item for a few months. Two of the women from the noisy group were crying as they left the restaurant. I can’t remember precisely what Lewis yelled at them, but it wasn’t only about the racket they were making; it was more personal than that. He insulted their appearances and their intelligence – wittily and