Or for as long as you can put up with my brooding ass anyway.”
Her breath caught, her teeth munching on her bottom lip.
“Hey.” I pulled her lip from her teeth before covering her mouth with my own. “I mean it, sweet girl.”
“I’ve only been with you too.” She broke the kiss, looking down at our joined hands on my lap. “I was a virgin on your eighteenth birthday. I wanted to tell you but thought it would scare you away. And then you acted like you knew what you were doing, so I never said anything.”
I was taken aback by her words. “Are you serious?”
She nodded, her cheeks turning redder.
“Look at me.”
Her beautiful eyes flicked up to mine. “Vince.”
“I was a virgin too, Gigi.” This whole time, I thought she was the one who acted experienced, but little did I know, neither of us where.
“You were?” She laughed, shaking her head. “Wow. You sure as hell didn’t act like it.”
I mentally patted myself on the back. “I knew what I wanted and that was you. I also read a lot.”
“What do you mean?” Gigi picked at a fuzz on my shirt. “Vince?”
“I did my research. I wanted to know as much as I could before we had sex. And then after that night, I continued to read. Sure, I did my schoolwork and got that shit done but most of my time was spent learning how to please you.”
“Uh…I think you did a good job pleasing me on your birthday. And this time together has been amazing.” A notable shiver trembled through her.
I chuckled. “Well, thank you, baby, but I’m not done yet. I’m going to continue learning.”
“Really?” she asked, chewing her bottom lip.
“Really.” I paused. “It has been pretty amazing, hasn’t it?”
She nodded. “It really has.”
I kissed her cheek.
She sighed, wrapping her arms around me.
My mouth found her throat, a low growl rumbling through me. “Spend the night with me.”
“Do you really have to ask?”
I took advantage of that and had her riding me shortly after. It was fast and hard, but needed.
A couple of hours later, she was passed out beside me in her bed. I knew I should have been sleeping as well but I couldn’t help but watch her.
“I love you, Gigi,” I whispered. That had been the first time I ever said those words out loud, even though they were whispered, and she wasn’t awake to hear me. It didn’t matter. Just saying them, tasting them on my tongue, gave me the strength to keep going and break down her walls until they were crumbled at our feet.
For good.
Gigi
I woke one morning, rolled over onto my back when a sharp pain erupted through my lower abdomen. I gasped, curling into a fetal position.
Taking a few deep breaths, the pain eventually went away.
Rising from the bed, I went to take a step when another slice of pain slammed into me.
I cried out, dropping to my knees.
“Gigi? You awake?” came a muffled voice from the other side of the door.
“Meadow.” We were supposed to meet for breakfast this morning.
“Gigi?” Meadow pushed open the door.
“It hurts.” I clutched my stomach, gasping through the pain.
“Oh God, what’s going on?” She rushed to me.
“I don’t know. But I can’t…it hurts so much.” Tears started streaming down my cheeks.
Was this it? Was I dying?
I almost wished I had.
Miscarriage.
That single word screamed through my head like a thousand broken promises. Why give me a gift only to take it away from me? I had no idea I was even pregnant. I didn’t get a chance to fall in love with my baby. With Vince’s baby. I didn’t get a chance to feel it kick. To hear its heartbeat. I didn’t even get to tell Vince. But now I had to tell him that I lost his baby. How could he forgive me? I had danced this whole time, drank some wine, got drunk once or twice. It was my fault.
My fault.
My fault.
I was vaguely aware of my phone ringing and chiming. I could hear Meadow and Shade’s voices on the other side of the door while I was currently locked away in my room.
“If you need anything, I’m here. Both Shade and I are.” Meadow pulled me into a firm hug. But I was like a statue. I didn’t cry. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t show any emotion. I kept them bottled up because what was the point?
“Don’t tell Vince,” I heard myself say.
Meadow released me, frowning. “He needs to know.”
“I