lip trembled. "Possibly," she whispered. "But I cannot take you if you don't promise."
"Is Mrs. Cordwainer suffering in some way? Because if she is, I should find it very hard indeed not to do what I could to help."
Stella almost laughed, but she choked on the sound. "She is not, that I can say absolutely."
Hester was even more puzzled, but the only alternative to accepting the conditions was to give up altogether. "Then I give you my word," she replied.
Stella smiled and stood up. "Then I shall take you to see Mrs. Cordwainer. She lives in a small house on the hospital grounds. She'll be asleep at this time of day, but she won't mind being woken up if it's to ask questions about the past. She likes to tell tales of times back then."
"Can... can I 'elp yer?" Scuff offered hesitantly.
It was her turn to consider her answer. She decided to accept, although Hester realized she must know her way around the hospital more easily than Scuff. She followed as side by side they made their way out of the room and down the corridor, Stella pretending she did not know where she was going, and Scuff pretending that he did.
They left the main building of the hospital and made their way along a well-worn path, up a short flight of steps, and to a row of cottages. Stella knew her way by the exact number of paces. Never once did she hesitate or miss her footing. She could have done it in the pitch-dark. Then Hester realized with a jolt that in fact that was what she was doing, always, and she felt almost guilty for the bright sunlight and the color she could see.
Stella knocked on the door of one of the cottages and it was immediately opened by a man in his middle forties, shy and plain, but with an acute intelligence in his eyes, and his whole countenance lit with pleasure when he saw Stella. It was a moment before he even realized that there was anyone else with her.
Stella introduced them, and explained their purpose. The man was Mrs. Cordwainer's son. If she were as old as Mrs. Myers had suggested, then he must have been born to her late in life.
"Of course," he said, smiling at Hester and Scuff. "I'm sure Mama will be pleased to tell you whatever she can." He led them through into a small, sunlit room where an ancient woman sat in an armchair, wrapped around with a light shawl, quite obviously asleep. Mr. Cordwainer's book, a translation of the plays of Sophocles, was lying faceup where he had left it to answer the door.
It was only as Stella sat down in one of the other chairs that Hester realized with amazement, and then a wave of understanding, that Cordwainer had not guided her in here, nor had he indicated to her where the chair was. She must be sufficiently familiar with the room not to need such assistance, and he knew that. Perhaps for her, they were careful never to move anything even a few inches from its accustomed place.
Was that the secret that she must not tell? Cordwainer was perhaps twenty years older than she, and quite clearly he loved her.
There was no time to think of such things. Mrs. Cordwainer had woken up and was full of interest. With very little prompting, she recalled Mary and her mother, and the birth of the baby.
"'Ard thing it were," she said sadly, blinking sharp gray eyes. "She weren't the last I seen die, but she were the first, an' I dint never forget 'er, poor soul. Just young, she were, for all that the little girl were about five, near as we could tell." She sighed. "Got 'er adopted out in a year or so. Nice family as were keen to 'ave 'er. Webb, they was called, or something like that. But they couldn't take the babe, couldn't manage a babe. Woman were crippled. We don't like ter split 'em up, but we got too many mouths ter feed as it were, an' they really wanted 'er."
"What happened to the little boy?" Hester asked softly. She could imagine him, growing up motherless, one of many, cared for but not special to anyone; fed, clothed, possibly even taught, but not loved. It was so desperately easy to see why he had invented a happiness that had never existed.
"Nice little lad, 'e were," Mrs. Cordwainer said dreamily. "Curly 'air, 'andsome