complete story and I honestly didn’t care to know.
“Don’t remind me,” Parker growled. “Now get in the house. It’s cold.”
I stormed away, my breath huffing and puffing as it left my lips. The cold felt good against the angry trembling of my skin.
“Keely.”
As much as I wanted to turn around and go to him, I couldn’t. I felt like I was being pulled in two, my soul being ripped in half. I walked around the side of the cottage, not wanting the warmth from inside just yet. My chest constricted, my body craving the bite of the cold. If only it could freeze the pain in my heart. A sob shook through me and my knees gave out. Mud soaked through my pants, my shoulders shaking.
Heavy arms wrapped around my middle, holding me tight against a hard body. “Let me in, Keely,” Parker whispered in my ear. “Do not shut me out. Please, angel.”
And that was when I broke. “I can’t do this anymore. I’m not strong enough.”
“You are strong. You are the strongest person that I know. Let me help you. Let me take away your pain. Even just for a moment.”
“No.” I shoved out of his grip and started crawling away. Mud and grass stuck to my hands and knees, dirtying my already torn body. “I want to be alone. I need…I…”
“Stop this!” Parker shouted, flipping me onto my back. “This is not just about you. It’s all of us. Stop trying to fight this on your own.”
“But—”
“Tell me the real reason. Tell me why you now don’t want me to go.” His fingers caressed down the side of my face. So soft. Soothing. “Why do you feel the need to do this on your own?”
“Because I can’t lose you,” I snapped, pushing him off of me. I rolled over onto my stomach and rose to all fours when my ankles were pulled out from under me.
“Tell me more,” he growled and covered my body with his. The heat radiating off of him enveloped us.
My heart jumped, beating hard against my ribs when he leaned into me. “It would kill me if something happened to you. Something already happened to my dad because of me. I can’t…I can’t have that guilt on my conscience again if you get hurt.” A lump formed in my throat.
“It’s not your fault. None of this is,” he breathed against my nape.
“Parker.”
“It’s not. Please stop blaming yourself.” He brushed the wet hair off the back of my neck. “Please, angel.”
A sob escaped me.
“Shhh.” He grazed his hand up and down my arm before linking our fingers. “Let me take you inside and get you cleaned up.”
“No. Just…” I arched under him. “Not yet.”
A soft snarl erupted from his chest. “You keep doing that and I’ll take you right here, pet.”
A breath left me and I lifted my head. The rain was coming down harder, soaking us to the very bone. I was muddy and dirty but I didn’t care at the moment. “Do it,” I demanded softly.
“It’s cold,” he said, his voice husky.
“I need your heat.” God, I felt like I was arguing with myself. Having an internal battle. “Please. Sir.” All thoughts of should I or shouldn’t I forced their way into my mind. It wasn’t the right time. We had so much shit to deal with first before sex was even a consideration but this wouldn’t be just sex. It would be a moment where we connected as one. Dominant and submissive. Giving and taking. We would be pouring the strength into the depths of our love. “Please.” I arched under him again, rubbing my rear against the thickness between his legs.
My pants were pulled down to my ankles when a light swat landed on my ass. I moaned.
“I don’t give into begging.” A zipper lowered, sending a shiver down my spine. “But I’m sick of you tormenting yourself over this.” His hot breath caressed my ear. “Spread your legs. Let me in. Allow me to be that light in your darkness.”
I did as he said and cried out when he thrust into me hard. Not giving me the chance to get used to his size, he pumped his length into me deeper and deeper.
“Feel the sting of the cold air. Embrace the pain of my cock giving you the pleasure that you so desperately need.” His hips hit my rear in rough strokes, bringing me over the brink of ecstasy.
His name left my lips on a scream.
“That’s it. Shut off