walked in beside him, and he let the canvas fall back into place. The tent opening was part of the illusion that this was a very solid, very permanent structure. The inside was a one-ring circus in a tradition old enough that I didn’t actually remember it except from pictures, but the bleachers that rose up on every side were very solid and cemented in, as solid as a modern sports arena. We were able to walk side by side between the first row of steps and the rail that kept the crowd from walking out on the now-empty sand.
“Yeah, it can,” he said, and he looked sad, as he ran one hand over his nearly shaved head.
I didn’t want sad today for some reason, so I changed the topic. “I can’t believe your hair is still curly with it cut that short. Even my curls are gone when it’s that close to my head.”
He half-laughed. “Mexican and German genetics aren’t going to be enough; you have to go all the way to Africa somewhere in your family tree to get curls like mine.”
I laughed with him. “Fine, genetically you’ve got a curl advantage.”
He turned up the main stairs, which were wider and led not just to higher seats, but to the draped glass booth at the very top. It looked like a media booth where someone would do a play-by-play, but it was actually the office for the manager of the Circus of the Damned, whoever that happened to be, and there was a small apartment behind it.
Socrates didn’t shorten his stride for me, but I managed to keep pace. The first time I’d walked the stairs my knees had hurt, and that was before I hit twenty-five. Now at thirty-one my knees didn’t bother me on the stairs. I moved up them easily, just below and a little to one side of Socrates’ longer stride. Yes, I was hitting the gym more now, but I didn’t think that was all of it. I’d gotten cut up by shapeshifters on my job, too, but one of the first ones that contaminated me had been the one and only panwere I’d ever seen. He’d had several different forms, and apparently I’d inherited that first, so every wereanimal that bled me after that had shared their beast with me. It was supposed to be medically impossible, and the fact that I didn’t change shape into any animal form was even more impossible. We all thought that was because I’d been Jean-Claude’s human servant before I caught lycanthropy, and his vampire marks somehow prevented me from shape-shifting. But we were so far out into theoretical metaphysics that we honestly didn’t know. I’d learned a few months ago that some of the less public parts of the military were interested in seeing if they could create soldiers that had my combination of the best of being a shapeshifter without turning into an animal form. I’d let people know that it was the vampire marks that prevented the shifting, and they couldn’t duplicate that part in a lab. So far no one had come knocking on my door about it and I was good with that.
It was awesome that I could keep pace with Socrates, who was a werehyena, and none of the old aches and pains hurt, but I wondered what else had changed. What else had changed about my body that I hadn’t realized? Which led to the thought, what if all the lycanthropy and vampire marks had affected more than just my physicality?
“What’s wrong, Anita? You look too serious for a woman about to see a jeweler about rings.”
I smiled at him, because I knew he was teasing me. I’d never been much for jewelry. I told him about my knees not hurting.
“That’s a good thing, not a bad thing,” he said.
I nodded. “But what else has changed that I didn’t notice?”
He sighed. “You don’t mean just the physical stuff.”
“Nope.”
We were outside the door now. “Someday we should sit down and I’ll tell you everything I know about what I’ve noticed before and after I became a werehyena.”
“I’d like that.”
“You may not like it after you hear it all.”
I shrugged. “That’s okay, too. I’d rather know the truth than have to guess.”
“Most people wouldn’t,” he said.
“I’m not most people.”
“Well, now that is the truth.” He smiled again.
I smiled back, because that’s what you’re supposed to do, but I didn’t really feel all that smiley.
Socrates knocked on the door, then put his