and took her seat again.
“You understand,” she said. “It is too difficult for him. He blames himself.”
“There was no madness,” I said.
“No.” Her golden eyes pierced mine. “Yet some call lovers mad.”
“If I had known I would not have done the rite.”
She nodded. “You and most others. Perhaps that is why suppliants may not be questioned. How many of us would be granted pardon if our true hearts were known?”
She took off her black cloak and laid it over the chair beside her. Her dress beneath was lapis blue, bound with a thin silver belt.
“Do you feel no remorse?”
“I suppose I could weep and rub my eyes to please you, but I choose not to live so falsely. My father would have destroyed the whole ship if I had not acted. My brother was a soldier. He sacrificed himself to win the war.”
“Except he did not sacrifice himself. You murdered him.”
“I gave him a draught so he would not suffer. It is better than most men get.”
“He was your blood.”
Her eyes burned, bright as a comet in the night’s sky. “Is one life worth more than another? I have never thought so.”
“He did not have to die. You could have turned yourself in with the fleece. Gone back to your father.”
The look that passed over her face. Like a comet indeed, when it veers to earth and turns the fields to ash.
“I would have been made to watch while my father tore Jason and his crew limb from limb, then been tormented myself. You will pardon me if I do not call that a choice.”
She saw the look on my face.
“You do not believe me?”
“You have said many things of my brother that I do not recognize.”
“Let me introduce you then. Do you know what my father’s favorite sport is? Men come often to our isle, looking to prove themselves against a wicked sorcerer. My father likes to set the captains of those ships loose among his dragons and watch them run. The crew he enslaves, stealing away their minds so they have no more will than stones. To entertain his guests, I have seen my father light a brand and hold it to one of those men’s arms. The slave will stand there burning until my father releases him. I have wondered if they are merely empty shells, or if they understand what is being done to them and scream inside. If my father catches me, I will find out, for that is what he will do to me.”
It was not the voice she had used with Jason, that cloying sweetness. It was not her gleaming self-assurance either. Each word was dark as an axe-head, heavy and unrelenting, and my blood drained at every blow.
“Surely he would not hurt his own child.”
She scoffed. “I am no child to him. I was his to dispose of, like his seed-warriors or his fire-breathing bulls. Like my mother, whom he dispatched as soon as she bore him an heir. Perhaps it might have been different if I’d had no witchcraft. But by the time I was ten I could tame the adders from their nests, I could kill lambs with a word and bring them back with another. He punished me for it. He said it made me unmarketable, but in truth, he did not want me taking his secrets to my husband.”
I heard Pasiphaë as if she whispered in my ear: Aeëtes has never liked a woman in his life.
“His greatest wish was to trade me off to some sorcerer-god like himself who would pay with exotic poisons. None could be found except his brother, Perses, so he offered me to him. I say my prayers every night that that beast did not want me. He has some goddess of Sumeria he keeps in chains for a wife.”
I remembered the stories Hermes had told me: Perses and his palace of corpses. Pasiphaë saying, Do you know how I had to keep him happy?
“It is strange,” I said, the words weak even to my own ears. “Aeëtes always hated Perses.”
“Not now. They are closest friends, and when Perses visits they talk of nothing but raising the dead and bringing down Olympus.”
I felt numb, barren as a winter field. “Does Jason know all this?”
“Of course he does not, are you mad? Every time he looked at me, he would think of poisons and burning skin. A man wants a wife like new grass, fresh and green.”
Had she not seen Jason flinch? Or did