Chiclet-white porcelain veneers shone in the dim room.
“I warned you this morning,” he said. “You didn’t listen. Listen now. You had two phones when they brought you in.”
“The email I quoted from is in my iPhone. Look at it. You’ll see the sender used some high-tech anonymous program to send it. We tried to trace it, but it’s impossible.”
Holland nodded to the man in the hood. “What’s your password?”
“Zero-five-two-seven-seven-two.”
“Good boy. You don’t like drowning on dry land, do you?”
“Go fuck yourself.”
“I would if I could. I’d save myself a lot of time.” Another smile. “What’s your second phone for?”
“That isn’t mine. One of the Watchman employees Pine fired gave it to me today.”
Holland thought about that. “Who does it connect to? A source?”
“I don’t know.”
“I guess it’s time to play again.”
“Damn right,” said Officer Farner, picking up the water jug.
“Not yet,” said Holland. “Have you found his emails?”
The hooded man answered, “Got an email with a big PDF sent by a Mark Felt.”
Holland laughed. “A source with a sense of humor. Whoever sent that is going to be giving me deep throat before they’re finished.”
He crouched easily beside the bench and looked into my eyes from inches away. “Am I going to have to tell them to keep going? Or are we going to have a civil conversation?”
“What do you want to know?”
“Good boy. I need one name from you, McEwan. Who did Sally Matheson give her cache to? Think hard before you answer. Because these Rhodes Scholars here are going to keep going until you tell them. You might as well start where it’s going to end anyway.”
“Sounds like you’re trying to talk him into giving you a piece of ass,” Farner muttered.
“You want severance pay with your pink slip?” Holland asked without even looking at the cop.
“No, sir. I mean, sorry, Mr. Holland.”
Beau Holland raised his hand and gave my cheek two friendly pats. “You heard my question. Now’s your chance to answer. Think hard, McEwan.”
Fear unlike anything I’d ever known turned my bowels to water. When I crouched in that house in Ramadi, waiting for the final insurgent assault, I never felt this. Back there, at least I had a rifle. I could do something. Even after they captured me, and I lay helpless on the kitchen table while they argued about cutting my throat, something told me that if I died, it would be because I was American. But facing Beau Holland in this stinking basement was the worst torture of all. I didn’t have the information he wanted, but he believed I did—which meant that he would drown me for no reason.
“Beau, listen,” I started. “I’m telling you the truth. I haven’t even—”
“Wrap his head again,” Holland ordered, getting to his feet. “Go till he gives me the name.”
Farner laughed in anticipation of taking out his hatred of Holland on me. Then he wrapped the cold towel around my head once more, binding it to the bench. I strained my back and neck hard enough to snap ligaments, even break bones, but I couldn’t evade the little cascade of water falling onto the towel.
I’m drowning again.
I gasp, breathe water, choke, suck in more water. A man screams questions in my ear, over and over, but I can’t give him what he wants. They tip the bench to drain my windpipe, give me a few sips of air, then start again. My chest muscles burn as the animal inside claws between my heart and sternum. My brain feels like it’s being squeezed out of my ears. In the epicenter of my terror, a shattering truth blooms like a silent, slow-motion explosion, answering a question that has haunted me for years—
This is what my son felt as he sank to the bottom of that swimming pool. Above him, the surface lay utterly silent, or rippled under a breeze, reflecting the muffled crystalline laughter of women’s voices from inside the condo. But at the bottom my little boy endured this horror with no comprehension of what was happening to him.
He knew only that he was alone.
“WHO SENT THIS EMAIL?” roars the voice.
“He’s not hearing you. He’s out of it. Give him a second. We may have to turn him over again.”
I’ve been plunged into the most Kafkaesque nightmare imaginable: being killed for information I don’t have.
“Come on! We need to clear his trachea and sinuses!”
Someone twists my neck, and the towel is ripped away again.
“Let’s lay the whole bench over this time,” says the man in the hood.