high school. “Some light reading, kid?”
“Yeah,” Nate said. “Do you like math?”
A quip died on her lips when she realized it might discourage the boy. “Nice. It’s good to be smart.”
“Ready?” Gideon asked.
“I am.”
The four years Joan had spent in Montana had hovered in the shadows of her life for many reasons. Foolish to think all the baggage had centered on Elijah, when the bulk of it belonged to Gideon.
Walking out the front door, as the boys raced toward the barn, Gideon unlocked the doors to the police-issue SUV.
She slid inside the car, glancing in the side mirror and watching as Gideon hugged his son and whispered something to him. A part of her was glad Gideon had a child to love. Even in college, he had said he wanted children. Even though she had refused to discuss the possibilities of motherhood in those days, a part of her now wished they’d had a child together.
She settled in the seat and hooked her belt. The dash was dust-free, as was the side console. There was a computer mounted between the seats as well as a two-way radio, which must have been convenient for when he was out of cell service.
He slid behind the wheel, clicked his seat belt as he looked in the rearview mirror at the boys to make sure they were clear of the car. She found it strange to think how time and life had made this wild and reckless cowboy more cautious and deliberate.
The engine throttled up as he pulled out of Ann’s driveway and onto the rural route.
Joan shifted her attention to the stunning mountain peaks that ran along the entire horizon. The landscape was so vast that it left her feeling exposed and unsure of how to proceed. She missed the urban gray granite walls of Philadelphia that flanked her and blocked out old memories that now nudged to the front of her mind. Joan shifted in her seat and ignored the tightening in her chest. She had been so stubborn and hard on him because she had loved him. She thought if she left him, it wouldn’t hurt so much. But she had been wrong.
As she narrowed her eyes, the landscape blurred, and she could pretend it was not so intimidating. She needed to find Elijah, figure out what his strategy was, and get the hell back to Philadelphia before she lost her mind.
Confessions of an Arsonist
This fire should have satisfied my cravings, but it has only created a hunger for more heat and more destruction.
CHAPTER EIGHT
Missoula, Montana
Sunday, September 6, 2020
11:00 a.m.
Gideon noticed Joan shivering but was not surprised, given her flimsy coat. She had forgotten about the weather. He turned up the heat. “I’m assuming the regular rental car place?”
“That’ll work.” She tapped her finger on her worn jeans, as if unsaid thoughts were scratching against her insides.
“It’s about twenty minutes from the ranch,” he said.
“How far is the rental car place from the arson scene?”
“Ten minutes in the opposite direction.”
When Gideon had first seen her at Ann’s, he was too taken aback to notice much about her. Now, with Ann and the boys gone, he’d had time to process. Time to remember what he had loved about her.
Joan was as fit and trim as she had been in college. Her hair was shorter, but he liked the way it showed off her angled face and made her green eyes pop. She did not wear much makeup, but she still did not need it. He had always assumed that if he ever saw her again—and he had fantasized about it—he would not feel really strongly one way or the other about her. Just twenty minutes with her had told him that he’d been wrong.
“Can you take me to the arson scene first?” Joan asked. “I want to see it before I talk to Elijah.”
“Why? You can’t work it in an official capacity.”
“Technically, no. But it may help. I’ve walked my share of arson scenes in the last few years.”
He could drop her off at the rental car terminal now and get on with his investigation, but it would be only an hour before she showed up at the crime scene and started poking around. Better to keep her close.
“Wondering if I’ll show up at the fire scene by myself?” she asked.
“I am.”
“Good guess. I will. I need to see it.”
“You think this person left a calling card?”
“Very few arsonists have signatures, but they leave clues about themselves,” she said. “It’s just a