“I’m sorry,” to Dallas, and bolt away.
40
Zack
“And this is Carrie,” Eric says out in the parking lot of the Kappa House as the girl in question gives me a shy smile and walks over.
She’s pretty with long dark hair and…everything else, I guess.
I don’t know. Whatever.
We’re standing in the crisp April night air, and the sounds of the party come from just behind that door. I haven’t been to a party since…forever…and I’m definitely not in the mood to meet a girl, but Eric seems to think I need to jump back in the game with dating. He’s given up on Sugar and me getting back together.
Eric grins, dressed in slacks and a slick button-up shirt. His hair is tamed and he’s got that I’m gonna party look on his face.
I arch a brow at him and we have a silent conversation.
Enjoy the girl, he says with his green gaze.
Fuck off.
He rolls his eyes and I blow out a breath. He just wants me to be the way I used to be, pre-Sugar.
I won’t ever be the same.
He throws an arm around the girl in question, and when she smiles, I realize I’ve already forgotten her name.
“Just thought you might like some company after our big win. She’s friends with Eleanor.”
“I’m glad you agreed to meet me,” the girl gushes.
Yeah. This is all Eric.
He gives me a look, an indication for me to be polite, but I think I see something else there too, a reminder that Sugar isn’t part of my world anymore.
Bitterness pulls at me. Maybe dating is the right thing—or at least going through the motions.
Takes one to get over one, Eric told me earlier.
“I’m so glad we’re finally getting together,” she says. “I’m a huge hockey fan and I’ve followed your career since prep school. You’re amazing.”
“Yeah.”
“You know,” she says as Eric goes on ahead of us, “we don’t even have to go inside if you don’t want. It’s been a long tournament and I’m sure you need to just relax.” I get her meaning when she leans in and stares up at me with big brown eyes.
I want blue ones, though, and it makes me antsy. I clear my throat and step away from her, but she’s right there, following.
“The Kappa guys expect us to show. It’s a tradition,” I mumble, glad for once to use it as an excuse.
She flutters her eyes. “Oh. Sure. I get it. Maybe we can pop in, show our faces, and leave?” Her lips curve up, and a few months ago I would have been all about that mouth.
I rub my beard. “I’ll probably stay a while. Do you have your own way home in case you want to leave?”
She nods, frowning.
I guess I’m not the charmer she thought.
She eases in closer, and we walk inside the Kappa House.
I feel the buzz in the air as I look out over the crowd, a vibe that grows. I see Taylor and Poppy and my heart jumps. She’s here. My gaze roves over the room, searching the dark corners, and my eyes widen when I find her on the dance floor.
I’m breathless at the sight of her, the way her hair falls down her back and the short blue dress that sways against her legs. Shit. She looks so beautiful…I can’t…I can’t…
She cranes her neck, searching the room, her eyes wide, and I know, I know it’s me she’s looking for. Right? Or has she forgotten me already?
My hands clench, battling with myself to not rush over and pluck her out of the arms of whoever the fuck she’s dancing with and tell her she—
“What’s going on?” says the girl next to me, but I ignore her and walk in closer, needing Sugar to see me.
The girl follows, calling my name, but it doesn’t register.
I come to a halt near the bar, my chest rising as our eyes collide.
Anger flies over me when I take in the guy she’s with. His hand, his motherfucking hand is on her lower waist, close to her ass—
Sugar looks at me, and her face is flat.
My jaw pops. Fuck, kill me now. Why can’t we get this right?
The girl pulls on my arm. “Let’s dance.”
“No.”
She stops and looks up at me, her face slowly reddening. “I feel like everyone’s staring at us.”
“They are. They always are.” My voice is tired.
“Please,” she says, and I give her a look, take her hand, and head straight toward Sugar on the dance floor.
We make our way out there,