that.”
Collin and I decided on three tests.
“Want to go out to eat or order in?”
“Order in.”
**P**
After dinner and a long bath, I peed on all three sticks and left them on a sheet of paper towel on the counter.
Standing in the bathroom's threshold naked, I stared at the huge TV hanging on the wall in our bedroom.
Collin tore his eyes away from the basketball game.
“So, what did the tests say?”
I wrung my hands and bit my lower lip. “Well I took the tests, but I didn’t look.”
He jumped out of bed and ran into the bathroom. I stepped over to the dresser and reached into a drawer.
I grabbed a T-shirt and bed shorts.
My eyes only darted toward the bathroom a hundred times. I tugged on my T-shirt and shorts. Collin was quiet. Was that good or bad? My stomach was in my throat. I felt the vomit rise again. When would this end? I strutted into the bathroom.
His palms braced the edge of the counter. I stared at the tattooed, dark, winged knight consuming his back.
“Do you not want a child with me, Kara?”
His deep voice bounced off the walls and sent shivers up my spine.
“It’s not that, Collin. We’re moving so fast. It’s my fault. I should have taken birth control pills.”
He turned to face me. “Do you want to return to Alaska?”
His voice was darn near a whisper.
Collin’s sad eyes made my heart melt.
I stepped closer and stared into his big brown eyes. “I want to be where you are.” My hands splayed his chest.
“I have good days and bad. Honestly, I miss my dad and friends. I’ve only ever known Alaska. You go off to work,” I paused. “I explore the city. Luckily, I can hang out with Sydney and the girls if I’d like, but I don’t want to be a bother to them all the time.”
“I guess everyone was right. This was too much of a shock, tearing you away from the only place you knew.” His jaw ticked. Collin swept his thumb across my lower pouty lip.
“You can go back to Alaska. I won’t force you to stay here with me any longer. Guess I fucked up. I wanted to be all you needed.”
“Collin, I said I want to be where you are.”
“But how can I ask you to stay and you’re not happy here?”
He searched my eyes for something. My voice caught in my throat. I couldn’t find the right words.
Collin shook his head. “Harry’s at your disposal.” He stepped around me.
“Collin, where are you going?”
He halted but didn’t look back. “I can’t be here when you walk out that door.”
He continued into the closet.
“You’re running from us?” I yelled.
My heartbeat thudded my rib cage.
He didn’t answer.
I sank to the floor in a puddle of my own tears. What the fuck just happened? He just ended us. My body heated. My insides felt like they were on fire. I hopped up and stared at the test results.
A flash blew by in my peripheral. I stalked out of the master bath and I peeked in the closet. A chunk of his clothes were missing. I ran into the living room.
“That’s it? You’re leaving us? Sending me back to Alaska knocked up. Yeah, fucking run. You got what you wanted. My fucking heart. You broke it. All the shit you did to get me here.” The vomit returned, this time only in words. “Was it like closing one of your deals?”
He dropped his luggage and garment bag. Collin turned around. “What?”
“Was I one of your deals? You know another merger or acquisition you are so wonderful at winning. You moved me from everything I knew. I don’t have a job. I have nothing.”
He smirked. “You have nothing. You couldn’t even try, Kara. I should have never touched you.”
My body quaked and not in a good way. Hurt struck every bone in my body. My bare feet ran top speed, and I slammed my palms into his chest. He didn’t budge. “Fuck you. I gave you my virginity, Collin. It was sacred, and I gave it to you, because I loved you. I trusted you to not break my heart. You fucking bastard. I never want to see you again.”
His eyes turned hollow. “I want to see my child, Kara. Even if you want nothing to do with me.”
He gathered his belongings and continued toward the elevator.
“Run back to your old ways and fuck every bitch in L.A.,” I shouted at his back.
The side of his