glances at me with a frown, the kind everyone seems to be giving me since I woke up in the hospital.
“Whatever, Rei,” she scoffs on her way out of a psychology lecture. “It’s not like we’re competing for state or anything.”
I pause gathering my books as everyone throws curious glances our way. I swear a phone flashed as if taking a picture of me.
“I just don’t see what I could add when I can barely walk,” I say slowly.
Truth is, I’m scared about facing the whole cheerleading thing. What if all that was wiped clean with my memories? If I can’t remember who I am or why I did all those awful things, how can I remember flipping in the air? I’ve seen videos of myself on the squad’s YouTube channel. I’m one of those who gets thrown and flips in the air before landing at the top. That shit is scary.
Bree closes in on me. The other cheerleaders who are in the same class stand behind her as if they’re scared of what’s about to go down.
“Team spirit, Reina.” She grips the edge of the table hard until her knuckles turn white.
One of the students elbows his friend on their way out.
Bree clears her throat and lowers her voice. “You have to get your shit together or I swear to God…”
“What?” I insist when she trails off. “If you start a threat, finish it.”
“Karma, Reina.” She straightens. “That always comes around to bite you in the ass.”
She flips her hair and storms out of the classroom.
I stand there, clutching my bag and feeling completely out of my element.
My head nearly explodes from the number of scenarios running rampant in it. Could I have wronged Bree, too?
Honestly, with my track record, I wouldn’t be surprised.
Naomi breezes past me with a vindictive smirk on her face.
“Hashtag bitch fight.” She blows her gum into a bubble and pops it in my face. I close my eyes, pining for patience. The only reason I’m not attacking her is because I’ve done something unforgivable.
“Leave Captain alone.” Lucy stands in front of me protectively.
Naomi flips her off. “Gladly, follower.” She starts to leave then stops and throws another comment over her shoulder. “Oh, and Luce, you might want to pick that up.”
Lucy looks around, confused. “What?”
“Your dignity.” And then Naomi is out the door.
Lucy sniffles. I stand up on a wobbly leg and awkwardly pat her shoulder. I’m totally unsure when it comes to comforting others, but I hate seeing Lucy in pain.
I’ve only known her for two days, but she and Naomi are easily the most non-fake people in the squad. She makes sure to fill me in whenever I’m lost. She’s not a follower like Naomi called her; she’s just doing her best to have everyone get along.
She’s a pacifier. Mom used to tell me those types usually have a soft, breakable core.
Wait…
Mom?
How can I remember what Mom told me? I thought I didn’t have a mom.
I mean, of course I was birthed by one, but she died during childbirth. From what I’ve gathered about my life—through Google—my dad has been a single parent all his life, so there isn’t a possibility of a stepmom either.
“Oh, I’m sorry, Captain.” Lucy wipes the moisture underneath her eyes. “I won’t do it again.”
“Do what?” I sound as confused as I feel.
“You told us not to cry in public or you’d have us clean the toilet.”
Holy shit. I was a dictator.
“Forget about that.” I offer her my handkerchief, and she takes it like it’s the Holy Grail. “You don’t have to defend me, Lucy. I can stand up for myself just fine.”
“I just didn’t want it to get out of hand between you two. Nao can be really vindictive.”
“Nao?” I raise a brow. “She lets you call her that?”
“Ugh. Old habits. We used to be friends. Best friends, actually.”
“What happened?”
“She hates me since the whole Seb thing. She thinks I knew and didn’t tell her and that I betrayed her.” She lifts a shoulder. “Doesn’t matter.”
God, I feel as evil as Hitler. Wait, maybe I was Hitler in a previous life. After all, we’re both dictators with a tendency for craziness.
“I’m so sorry, Luce.” I squeeze her arm lightly.
She stares with wide eyes, her jaw nearly hitting the floor.
“Lucy?” I wave a hand in front of her face. Shit, I think I broke the poor girl.
“Uh…yeah…sorry. It’s just…we studied together since high school and that’s the first time I’ve heard you apologize.”
“Don’t be silly. Everyone apologizes.”
“Not