me, and no way would I settle for a submissive woman.
I crave a woman who can embrace the darkness I harbor in the depths of my controlling persona. A woman who won't simply bend to my will at any command.
I knew dating a man would give me the opportunity to see their attempt to resist my dominating control and witness whether they could commit to a lifestyle as dangerous and "dark" as mine, but after Elliott, the thought of being with another and exposing my secrets was too much of a risk for me to take.
Until I crossed paths with William that day.
I wouldn't call it 'love at first sight' because it was more like envy at first sight. The way he dressed so sophisticatedly, his high taste in cars based on the very car that picked him up, and the hidden fact that William was actually Willow, Roberto De Luca's only “son” greatly intrigued me.
Now here we were months later - sitting in a booth in the midst of one of the most popular, exclusive gala events of the year.
With Willow all cozied up against me after drinking a bit too much.
To be truthfully honest, I didn't mind this as much as I would have a few months back. "This" wouldn't have been tolerated - period - but again, Willow somehow managed to slip through the cracks when it came to rules and my personal boundaries.
She worked her magic without even trying, and it was far too easy to fall into her grasp.
Jayce was drinking another beer, his eyes full of amusement while he continued to eye me and Willow - though his attention was obviously lingering on Willow as she continued to attempt to seduce me.
I felt like she was trying to make up for pissing me off in her drunken state, but I had no clue what she was thinking because I was far too tired to mentally try and peek into the chaos of her mind. Willow's thought process was like walking through a forever flowing maze that didn't have an exit route.
I'd experienced my share of complicated minds. All three of my comrades had tricky minds that were hard to maneuver through to get to the root of their insecurities, struggles, and buried chests of threatening emotions.
But Willow was a path that would take months to get through. A maze filled with triggering traps that would surely leave a few mental scars within my own mind if I didn't tread carefully. I wasn't going to get into that, because if I fucked something up, I could trigger permanent damage, and personally, I knew she wasn't ready to be invaded by my Alpha capabilities.
Among the other Forbidden members, it took Saint the longest to open up to me - surprisingly - and even more shocking was Neo being the easiest to let me through to his darkest fears.
And desires.
I never understood why it was so easy for him to open up to me, but at the same time, maybe he knew my true intentions were not to hurt them. I needed to know enough to protect them from the various enemies on our trail.
As Alpha, it was my duty to ensure I knew enough to protect them in situations they couldn't handle on their own, and it was going through the stages of developing enough trust between us that aided that process.
I'd fucked that up when my control was seized by that fae, and it was only thanks to my wolf’s control that that fae didn't retrieve information on my pack members. His interference, however, forced me to start all over again in building that trust with Willow, and this time around, it would be far harder because of Willow's Alpha qualities.
Her wolf may be “young" and playful when she shifted, but the knowledge she carried in the realms of wisdom and power was another level I wasn't ready to tackle.
The cold touch brushing along my cock pulled me out of my thoughts, and my eyes slowly moved to the culprit, who was happily humming away.
"Willow." This woman may be the potential threat to my own sanity. I thought she was a struggle to control when she was sober, but her drunken state was far worse.
She pulled my cock out without glancing my way, and the way she smiled in delight made my heart skip a few times.
No way is she planning on sucking me right now.
"If you really think that, you're blinder than Neo."
I mentally