I don't know how long I sat there in the corner before I found the strength to stand and move to the couch.
I vaguely registered that dawn was lighting the night sky when I heard the distant sound of Cary's cell phone ringing.
Shortly after that, he came running into the living room.
"Eva!" He was on me in a minute, crouching in front of me with his hands on my knees.
"How far did he go?" I blinked down at him.
"What?" "Cross called.
Said he'd had another nightmare."
"Nothing happened."
I felt a hot tear roll down my cheek.
"You look like something happened.
You look ."
I caught his wrists when he surged to his feet with a curse.
"I'm okay."
"Shit, Eva.
I've never seen you look like this.
I can't stand it."
He took a seat beside me and pulled me into his shoulder.
"Enough is enough.
Cut him off."
"I can't make that decision now."
"What are you waiting for?" He forced me back to glare at me.
"You're going to wait too long and then this won't be just another bad relationship, it'll be one that permanently f**ks you up."
"If I give up on him, he'll have no one.
I can't - " "That's not your problem.
Eva .
Goddamn it.
It's not your responsibility to save him."
"It's - You don't understand."
I wrapped my arms around him.
Burying my face in his shoulder, I cried.