department stores, did she realize what her husband had really been saying.
Reese hadn't been talking about Amelia. He'd meant Tammie Lee.
CHAPTER 42
ALIX TOWNSEND
"Y ou like Jordan, don't you?" Laurel asked Alix early Wednesday morning. Alix was getting ready for work.
Like Jordan? That was an understatement if ever there was one. "Yeah, I guess."
"You trust him?"
She nodded, and then shrugged. "Sure." Quickly her suspicions rose. "Do you know a reason I shouldn't?"
"No."
"Then why are you asking?" she demanded.
"I don't know.... I guess I'm hoping you learned from my mistake. You tried to tell me John was no good, but I wouldn't listen and now look at me," she muttered, her bitterness so intense it soured her words.
As for looking at Laurel, all Alix could see was a grossly overweight girl with stringy blond hair who sat on her ass in front of the TV most days. But as long as Laurel made her share of the rent payment, Alix didn't care how she spent her days. She'd quit two jobs, the video store and the day care center, and was currently working at a dry cleaner. She hadn't lasted a month at the day care center and said she'd hated it.
"When you and Jordan went out on that fancy dinner date, what did you talk about?" her roommate pressed.
Laurel had certainly taken an interest in Jordan all of a sudden. "I don't know," she returned flippantly. "Stuff."
"What kind of stuff?"
"Why all the interest?" Alix was surprised she was even having a conversation with her roommate, but she wasn't really comfortable with the subject.
"I mean, what do you talk about with a minister?"
"Youth minister," she corrected. "I knew him when we were in grade school, you know. He's just like everyone else." More than once he'd proven he was human - in temperament and in the easy passion that flared between them. So far, everything had been kept under control, but Alix knew she tempted him as much as he tempted her. Jordan might work for the church, but he was very much a man.
"Tell me what you talked about, okay?" Laurel insisted. She seemed close to tears. Alix couldn't imagine why this was so important.
"I told him I wanted to be a chef one day or have my own catering company. We talked about me getting into a good cooking school - not that it's ever likely." That was only a small part of their conversation. Jordan had a gift for drawing people out and making them feel as if they were the center of the universe.
"You want to be a chef?"
Alix shrugged. This shouldn't be any newsflash to Laurel who'd lived with her for the past year. Any real cooking had been done by her; Laurel had specialized in stocking the kitchen with ice cream, toaster waffles and potato chips. But then Alix realized they'd never taken the time to be more than roommates. Until recently, she'd never really confided her hopes and dreams in Laurel - or in anyone, she supposed. Alix had few friends, although she felt a connection with the women in her knitting class.
Ever since her breakup with the used-car salesman, Laurel had spent most of her time alone. Her self-pity had quickly irritated Alix. She didn't consider the relationship any big loss, but apparently Laurel thought otherwise.
"Does he know about your mother?" Laurel asked next.
The fact that her mother was currently serving time in the Women's Correctional Center at Purdy wasn't a fact Alix willingly broadcast. "I told him." There was little Jordan didn't know about her. She didn't want any unpleasant surprises in their relationship. He knew her mother had gone to prison for the attempted murder of Alix's father, too.
"Do you ever think about her?"
"Not much." Alix found all these questions mildly annoying, but Laurel had been so moody lately that she wanted to encourage her to continue chatting.
"Do you love her?"
"My mother?" That question took some real soul-searching, but she was determined to be honest. If she was, then maybe Laurel would be honest with her. "I suppose I do. I don't have any contact with her because when she writes, all she wants from me is money or cigarettes. She never asks about me or shows any interest in my life. I don't need her." She said this in a casual way, as if it was well understood that she didn't need anyone. "My only worry is that one day I'll end up just like her."