“Whatever you need, Genevieve.”
I wanted to believe him, I wanted to trust him, but there was that name again. Genevieve. The reason I was alone, one of many reasons he couldn’t understand. He still called me that sometimes, slipping into the same phrasing my father used, the same formal, stilted attempts at intimacy. Now that the siege had failed, now that the City was again under my father’s control, he couldn’t help me. He didn’t even know who I was.
For a second I wanted to tell him, to see his face as I revealed that I had tried to kill my father. That the missing blueprints that he’d wondered about one afternoon, as he went through his file drawers, were actually stolen and given to the rebels. That Reginald, the King’s Head of Press, had been my only true confidant inside the Palace walls, that there were codes in the paper daily, one of which he’d read out loud to me the other morning, without even realizing. What would he really say, what would he really do, if I told him I was leaving now, alone, possibly forever?
As the doors opened, I started down the hall, pulling my hand free. “If you want to help me,” I said, “let me be. Just for the morning. Just for now.” He stood there, holding the door open, watching me go.
I PUSHED INTO THE SUITE, GRABBING ONE OF CHARLES’S leather bags and emptying his papers into a bottom desk drawer. I moved quickly, pulling a few sweaters and socks from the chest, opting for the thick wool ones he wore with his loafers. I tucked the radio into the bag and the knife into the side of my belt, where it would be easier to reach. I took the bundle of letters from the nightstand, fumbling one last time through each drawer, trying to locate the picture of my mother. It had disappeared after those first weeks in the Palace, but I never stopped hoping I’d find it, hidden beneath some papers or in the recess behind the drawers. It was too late now. I moved quickly into the bathroom and stepped onto the edge of the tub. Caleb’s shirt was still there, just inside the grate. I zipped everything into the bag and left.
On my way out I stopped at the Palace kitchen. It was empty, the workers still crowded by the parlor windows. The shelves were only half full, the supplies depleted from so many days without deliveries. I went through each cabinet and drawer, packing a few bags of dried figs and apples, along with the thin, salted boar’s meat that was pressed in paper. I hadn’t been able to stomach it in the past weeks, but I brought it anyway, knowing it would be good to have. I ran water from the tap, filling up three bottles’ worth before tucking them away. When I turned back into the hall, there were two soldiers standing beside the elevator, their eyes moving from me to the bag.
I walked toward them, meeting their gaze. “I’ll be right back,” I said, pushing the button beside the elevator. “I promised Charles I’d leave this in his office. He’d asked for some papers from the suite.” I pointed at the metal doors, waiting for them to step aside, permitting me through. But they didn’t move. Instead the older of the two, a man with a chipped front tooth, adjusted his stance, filling the doorframe.
“Your father needs to speak with you,” the other said, clamping down on my wrist. I’d seen him before, stationed at the end of the hall. He had a permanent five o’clock shadow, his skin so pale you could always see the dark hair just below the surface.
“I need to go downstairs first,” I said, pulling free. “He can speak to me when I’m finished.” But the other soldier grabbed my arm. I studied his hand as it clutched my biceps, waiting for him to let go, but instead he pulled me back, toward my father’s suite.
“It can’t wait,” he said. He didn’t meet my eyes.
I felt the knife pressed inside my belt, tucked tightly against my hip. He held my right arm, the other soldier flanking me on my left, with no room for me to maneuver. They led me down the hallway to my father’s suite. As we approached the door I could hear Charles’s voice from the other side, his words hurried.
“I can’t say,” he finished, as we walked