has anyone else. Mom’s dead. Dad and Grandmamma will never accept me again. Not with you, anyway. They think Mama and Rhett ruined you. And maybe not at all. So you have to forgive me.”
Shaking my head, I start pacing the room, knowing damn well that my burning knuckles need some ice on them before the skin breaks and everything hurts like a thousand bitches. Since I still can’t figure out how to approach her, I move on to practicalities.
“So you’re going to stay here with us?”
Like the Followhills and I are a unit or some shit.
She shrugs. “Mrs. Followhill thinks it’s in everyone’s best interest.”
Other than her daughter’s.
“Gonna go to school?” I fold my arms across my chest.
“Yes.”
“Well, I leave early every morning to Las Juntas for strength training, so your 2.0 version better be an early riser.”
“I…” She looks around the empty room, biting on her lower lip. “I’m actually going to attend All Saints High. It’s closer than Las Juntas, and they have an extensive tutoring program.”
“Daria goes to ASH,” I deadpan. In my mind, this is the end of the discussion. They can’t go to the same school. I doubt they’ll survive living under the same roof for longer than three hours.
Via picks imaginary lint from her nun dress. “Mrs. Followhill said Daria can give me a ride. I won’t be in her way.” Her tone is soft, coy. “I just want to graduate. I’m probably at junior level, if that. I’ll have to talk to their counselor and take a bunch of tests.”
I look away, breathing through my nostrils. Finally, something I can understand and decode. Pain for my sister, for the screwed-up situation she’s in.
“No one can know that I’m here,” I warn her. “Coach Higgins still thinks that I live with Rhett. I can’t move school districts and stay with the football team.”
She nods. “I would never tell on you, Penn. You can trust me.”
I snort. First of all, I can’t. And second of all, she sounds twelve.
I walk to the door, throwing it open and cocking my head. I can’t see her face right now. There’s too much going on inside my head and chest.
“Out.”
Her steps are slow and cautious as she marches out, stopping at the threshold.
“Look, I just want my brother back. I swear. I’m not here to cause any trouble. Can you try? Please?” She presses her palms together in front of her.
“Are you serious about this?”
“God, Penn.” She closes her eyes and shakes her head. “You’re the only thing that makes sense in my life anymore. Yes.”
I walk over to my desk, open a drawer, and produce a Swiss Army knife. I drag it along my open palm, thumb to little finger, then hold my bloodied hand up in invitation.
She hesitates only for a second before opening her small palm.
“Cut yourself.” I throw her the knife. Via has always been scared shitless of blood and needles and fucking everything. I mean, she was scared of flies. But blood makes her woozy.
She swallows, gawking at my hand, the knife, then my hand again.
“Bleed for me,” I hiss.
Like I bled for you. Every sleepless night. Each excruciating day.
I watch her body rocking with silent sobs as she pierces the skin of her palm and cuts herself open. Our blood is dripping between us on the lush cream carpet of the Followhills’ mansion as we shake on the promise that we’d never betray each other again.
“I’ll take you living here to my grave,” she chokes out.
Later that night, I lie on my bed, staring at the dried-up blood in my palm.
Then my mind travels to the blood on the condom when I pulled out of Daria earlier.
How I made a blood oath with two different girls today.
With two perfect enemies.
One who celebrated a shitty birthday, the other experiencing a glorious rebirth.
One thing’s for sure—one of them will be betrayed.
You’re tearing confessions from my mouth
Reactions from my flesh
Fights from my fists
Blood from my heart
With your eyes alone
Sometimes I want to break the wall I built between us
Let you in
And watch you destroy me
I count the beauty spots on my thigh.
I study all six of them with my forehead pressed against the steering wheel while I wait for Via to come out. I agreed to drive her to school and drop her off at the counselor’s office, then show her around. I think I mostly said yes out of shock. The reality of Mel bringing her here, and Penn knowing about it and