shook her head. “No.”
My stomach hurt as I watched the skinny guard fling our cabinet doors wide and toss what little food we had into his bag.
“All provisions are the property of the Reich,” the tall one said. “You will be issued ration cards.”
Tinned peas, two potatoes, and a sad little cabbage went into the skinny one’s bag. Then he grabbed a rolled paper bag that held the last of Matka’s coffee.
She reached for it.
“Oh, please—may we keep the coffee? It’s all we have.”
The tall one turned and looked at Matka for a long second. “Leave it,” he said, and his underling tossed it onto the counter.
The men stepped through our three little bedrooms and pulled drawers from bureaus, dumping socks and underclothes on the floor.
“Weapons?” said the tall one as the other searched closets. “Any other food?”
“No,” Matka said. I’d never seen her lie before.
He stepped closer to her. “You may have heard that withholding that which is due the Reich is punishable by death.”
“I understand,” Matka said. “If I could just visit my husband…”
We followed the men out to the back garden. The yard, fenced on all sides, suddenly seemed smaller with the SS men standing there. It all looked normal, but the ground where we’d buried our things the week before was still beaten quite flat. It was so obvious something was buried there. I counted the guard’s steps as he walked into the yard. Five…six…seven…Could they see my knees shaking?
Our chicken, Psina, moved closer to our buried treasure spot, scratching near it, looking for bugs. My God, the shovel was there, leaning against the back of the house, dirt still clinging to the blade. Would they take us to Lublin Castle or just shoot us in the yard and leave us for Papa to find?
“Do you think I’m stupid?” the tall guard said, walking toward the spot.
Eight…nine…
My respiration shut off.
“Of course not,” Matka said.
“Get the shovel,” said the tall guard to his underling. “You really thought you’d get away with this?”
“No, please,” Matka said. She held on to the St. Mary medal she wore on a chain around her neck. “I am from Osnabrück, actually. You know it?”
The taller guard took the shovel. “Of course I know it. Who hasn’t been to the Christmas market there? Have you registered as Volksdeutsche?”
Volksdeutsche was the German term for ethnic Germans living in countries other than Germany. The Nazis pressured Polish citizens with German heritage like Matka to register as Volksdeutsche. Once registered, they got extra food, better jobs, and property confiscated from Jews and non-German Poles. Matka would never accept Volksdeutsche status, since that showed allegiance to Germany, but this put her at risk, because she was going against the Reich.
“No, but I am mostly German. My father was only part Polish.”
Psina scratched the soil around the smooth spot and pecked something there.
“If you were German, you’d not be breaking rules, would you? Withholding what is due the Reich?”
Matka touched his arm. “It is hard dealing with all of this. Can you not understand? Imagine your own family.”
“My own family would have handed what they had to the Reich.”
The SS man took the shovel and continued toward the spot.
Ten…eleven…
“I’m so terribly sorry,” Matka said, following him.
The man ignored Matka and took one more step.
Twelve.
How far would he dig before he hit the box?
“Please, give us another chance,” Matka said. “The rules are so new.”
The guard turned, leaned on the shovel, and gave Matka a thorough looking over. He smiled, and I could see his teeth clearly, like little chewing gum tablets.
He leaned closer to her and lowered his voice. “Maybe you know the rule about curfew?”
“Yes,” Matka said, a tiny crease between her brows. She shifted in her shoes.
“That is a rule you can break.” The SS man took Matka’s medal between his thumb and forefinger and rubbed it, watching her the whole time.
“One needs a pink pass to violate curfew,” Matka said.
“I have them here in my pocket.” He dropped the medal and put his hand over his heart.
“I don’t understand,” Matka said.
“I think you do.”
“Are you saying you will let this go if I come visit you?”
“If that is what you heard—”
“The Germans I know are cultured people. I can’t imagine you would ask a mother of two to do that.”
The man cocked his head to one side, bit his lip, and picked up the shovel. “I am sorry you feel that way.”
“Wait,” Matka said.
The man lifted the shovel into the air above his head.
“My God,