had spent an hour picking our way over the scrub, performing the morbid job of counting the wolf bodies and seeing if Sam recognized them. Seven wolves dead, including Beck. We hadn’t gotten to Shelby’s or Cole’s bodies yet.
Sam stood a few feet away, looking out into the woods, his hands linked behind his head. As always, it was a gesture that was at once intensely Sam but also Beck. I didn’t remember if I’d ever told Sam that. I didn’t know if it would help or hurt to tell him now.
“Isabel,” I said.
Isabel just sighed.
“I know. What is it like for you there?”
Isabel’s voice was unfamiliar. I thought maybe she’d been crying. “Oh, the usual. I’m grounded for the rest of my life, which is, like, until next week, because after that, they’ll kill me. I’m in my room right now because I’m tired of screaming.”
That explained her voice.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“Don’t be. I got there a little late, didn’t I?”
“Don’t beat yourself up, Isabel. I know that’s what you like to do, but you didn’t owe the wolves anything, and you came anyway.”
She didn’t say anything for a long time, and I wondered if she believed me. Finally, she said, “And they’re sending me to California to live with Nanna until they can sell the house.”
“What?”
I spoke so sharply that Sam looked over to me, frowning.
Isabel’s voice had no intonation at all. “Yeah. I’m taking my finals and then I’m on a plane with my stuff. Isabel Culpeper. This is her noble end. Back to California with her tail between her legs. Do you think I’m weak for not just taking off?”
Now it was my turn to sigh. “If you can keep your parents, I think you ought to. Your parents love you, even if your dad is a jerk. It doesn’t mean I don’t want you to go.” Isabel in California? “I can’t believe it. Are you sure they won’t change their minds?”
She scoffed. It was a raw sound, a new wound.
“Tell her thank you,” Sam said.
“Sam says to tell you thank you.”
Isabel laughed. Ha. Ha. Ha. “For leaving the state?”
“For saving our lives.”
For a moment, we didn’t say anything. From the direction of the lake, a loon cried. If I hadn’t known, logically, that I had been here this morning, I wouldn’t have remembered it. As a wolf, everything about this place looked different.
Isabel said, “Not everybody’s lives.”
I didn’t know what to say to that, because it was true. It wasn’t really her fault, still, but I couldn’t tell her it wasn’t true. Instead, I said, “We’re in the field. Where was Cole’s — uhh — where did he —”
She interrupted, “There was a bank by the road. There should be my tire tracks. He was a few yards before that. I have to go. I have to —”
The phone went dead.
I sighed and closed my phone, relaying the information. Together we followed the directions, which led us to Shelby’s body. It was surprisingly unmolested, except for her face, which was so destroyed that I couldn’t bring myself to look at it. There was a lot of blood.
I wanted to feel compassion for her, but all I could think was She is the reason Cole is dead.
“She’s finally gone,” Sam said. “She died as a wolf. I think that would please her.”
All around Shelby’s body, the grass was smeared and spattered and stained with red. I didn’t know how far away Cole had died. Was this his blood? Sam was swallowing, looking at her, and I knew that he saw past the monster to something else. I couldn’t.
Koenig muttered something about needing to make a phone call and moved off, giving us some distance.
I touched Sam’s hand. He was standing in so much blood that it looked like he had been wounded himself. “Are you doing okay?”
He rubbed his own arms; it was getting cool again as the sun went down. “I didn’t hate it, Grace.”
He didn’t have to explain. I could still remember that feeling of joy at seeing him bound toward me as a wolf, even if I had no way to remember his name. I remembered exchanging images with him at the head of the pack. They all trusted him, like I did. I said softly, “Because you were better at it.”
He shook his head. “Because I knew it wasn’t forever.”
I touched his hair and he bent his head to kiss me, quiet as a secret. I leaned on his chest and together