her...but if she'd failed to notice a guy in that outfit following her on a deserted street, she was worse off than she'd thought. The jingle of chains alone should have given him away. He sounded like Santa Claus's sleigh.
But if he hadn't followed her, then how had they known where to find her? She'd never been to Sol's. They - whoever they were - couldn't have just sent him there, it was impossible. No, he must have followed her, she decided. Either he was a lot better than she thought, or she'd been preoccupied with her own distress and had just plain dropped the ball.
Mystery solved.
Well, not quite. What had all that drama achieved, exactly? Why would they have put on the whole dog-and-pony show in the first place?
To get me to call Lucia Garza.
She stopped walking, frozen in her tracks as her mind raced. Maybe that was all they'd wanted. If Garza was dirty, she'd just had a minutes-long conversation that was on her cell phone records, and dammit, this could have been a setup, couldn't it? The cops who'd put away McCarthy were still on her ass, looking for any reason to pull her in for questioning. She'd had the fight in the bar. Borden - if his name was really Borden - would be tough to find, if all this was just an elaborate scheme. Maybe the paper and the check weren't genuine. Shit, for all she knew, they'd had them printed up under her own name.
Paranoia, she told herself, and forced herself to start breathing again. You just saw McCarthy today. That makes you paranoid, and you know it.
Ben McCarthy had told her to watch her back. She should've listened to him. Yeah, listen to the convicted murderer. Good plan.
She wished the sarcastic monitor in her head would shut the hell up. McCarthy was no murderer. The case had been a crock of shit, and in time, they'd figure it out, have him exonerated and released from that hellhole. McCarthy had been a good partner and a hell of a cop, and he wasn't guilty. Couldn't be guilty, because if he was, that meant she was a poor enough judge of character not to have realized that her own partner, her friend, had calmly pulled the trigger on three people and then walked away, covered it up, and lied for nearly a year. And used her to do it.
Stop thinking about Ben. That was why she'd gone to Sol's. It was a kind of punishment she meted out to herself for making the trip to Ellsworth. She always felt safer and stronger there, talking to him; he could always make her believe that the world was wrong and the two of them were right.
It was only after she got out into that wrong world again that she began to doubt, and the darkness started to creep in, and she felt the guilt and shame and horror again.
And went in search of something to drown it in.
Even if McCarthy was right, that didn't improve things for her, because if they could get to him, they could get to anyone. She wished she could call him. If his enemies had set this up, then she needed McCarthy's clarity of mind to tell her what it meant.
Right now, it was just a heap of fragmented facts looking for context. McCarthy had always been the logical one, the one to meticulously pick through the pile and fit pieces together until the picture started forming....
Her cell phone rang. She grabbed for it, startled, and checked the number before thumbing it on.
Lucia Garza was calling her back.
"Yeah?" she asked cautiously.
"Look, I'm sorry. It's Jazz, right?"
"Yeah," Jazz said, and started walking again.
"I got out of line, and I apologize. It is strange, though, don't you agree?"
"I do." She struggled with it for a few seconds, and admitted, "I was out of line, too."
Another brief silence. "You think you're being played?"
"Probably."
"Yeah, me, too." The sound of papers rustling. "I don't like this phone thing. It's a paper trail. They can interpret it however they want."
"They, who?" Jazz asked.
"They anybody."
"You're not paranoid - "
"If they're really out to get you," Lucia finished. "Sorry for interrupting."
"Hey, that's your freak, not mine. Me, I hate being lied to."
This time, she did hear an emotion in the voice. "We have something in common after all."
"So." Sol's was ahead. Jazz quickened her pace to get past it faster. "You want to do this thing? Talk face-to-face?"
There was a