two of them driven by kids from Cleaves Mills. They were dragging. They came up over what’s known as Carson’s Hill on Route 6, headed east. Your son was in the cab, headed west, toward Cleaves. The cab and the car on the wrong side of the road collided head-on. The cab driver was killed, and so was the boy driving the other car. Your son and a passenger in that other car are at Eastern Maine Med. I understand both of them are listed as critical.”
“Critical,” Herb said.
“Critical! Critical!” Vera moaned.
Oh, Christ, we sound like one of those weird off-off-Broad-way shows, Herb thought. He felt embarrassed for Vera, and for Sergeant Meggs, who must surely be hearing Vera, like some nutty Greek chorus in the background. He wondered how many conversations like this Sergeant Meggs had held in the course of his job. He decided he must have had a good many. Possibly he had already called the cab driver’s wife and the dead boy’s mother to pass the news. How had they reacted? And what did it matter? Wasn’t it Vera’s right to weep for her son? And why did a person have to think such crazy things at a time like this?
“Eastern Maine,” Herb said. He jotted it on a pad. The drawing on top of the pad showed a smiling telephone handset. The phone cord spelled out the words PHONE PAL. “How is he hurt?”
“I beg your pardon, Mr. Smith?”
“Where did he get it? Head? Belly? What? Is he burned?”
Vera shrieked.
“Vera can you please shut UP!”
“You’d have to call the hospital for that information,” Meggs said carefully. “I’m a couple of hours from having a complete report.”
“All right. All right.”
“Mr. Smith, I’m sorry to have to call you in the middle of the night with such bad news ...”
“It’s bad, all right,” he said, “I’ve got to call the hospital, Sergeant Meggs. Good-bye.”
“Good night, Mr. Smith.”
Herb hung up and stared stupidly at the phone. Just like that it happens, he thought. How ’bout that. Johnny.
Vera uttered another shriek, and he saw with some alarm that she had grabbed her hair, rollers and all, and was pulling it. “It’s a judgment! A judgment on the way we live, on sin, on something! Herb, get down on your knees with me ...”
“Vera, I have to call the hospital. I don’t want to do it on my knees.”
“We’ll pray for him ... promise to do better ... if you’d only come to church more often with me I know ... maybe it’s your cigars, drinking beer with those men after work ... cursing ... taking the name of the Lord God in vain ... a judgment ... it’s a judgment ...”
He put his hands on her face to stop its wild, uneasy whipping back and forth. The feel of the night cream was unpleasant, but he didn’t take his hands away. He felt pity for her. For the last ten years his wife had been walking somewhere in a gray area between devotion to her Baptist faith and what he considered to be a mild religious mania. Five years after Johnny was born, the doctor had found a number of benign tumors in her uterus and vaginal canal. Their removal had made it impossible for her to have another baby. Five years later, more tumors had necessitated a radical hysterectomy. That was when it had really begun for her, a deep religious feeling strangely coupled with other beliefs. She avidly read pamphlets on Atlantis, spaceships from heaven, races of “pure Christians” who might live in the bowels of the earth. She read Fate magazine almost as frequently as the Bible, often using one to illuminate the other.
“Vera,” he said.
“We’ll do better,” she whispered, her eyes pleading with him. “We’ll do better and he’ll live. You’ll see. You’ll ...”
“Vera.”
She fell silent, looking at him.
“Let’s call the hospital and see just how bad it really is,” he said gently.
“A-All right. Yes.”
“Can you sit on the stairs there and keep perfectly quiet?”
“I want to pray,” she said childishly. “You can’t stop me.”
“I don’t want to. As long as you pray to yourself.”
“Yes. To myself. All right, Herb.”
She went to the stairs and sat down and pulled her robe primly around her. She folded her hands and her lips began to move. Herb called the hospital. Two hours later they were headed north on the nearly deserted Maine Turnpike. Herb was behind the wheel of their ’66 Ford station wagon. Vera sat bolt