either.”
“We’ll figure it out. It’ll be fun. Come on.” He helped Bret off the sofa and followed him into the kitchen. When Bret was settled on the stool, Liam went to the fridge and got out the plastic bags full of veggies and the marinated chicken. After some searching, he found the cutting board and a big knife.
He started with the mushrooms.
“Mommy doesn’t put ’shrooms in it. I don’t like ’em.”
“Oh.” Liam put the mushrooms back in the bag and reached for the cauliflower.
“Nope.” Bret was starting to look scared. “I tole you you don’t know how to do it …”
Liam grabbed the broccoli. “This okay?”
“Uh-huh. Lots of trees.”
He started to chop it up.
“Littler!” Bret shouted.
Liam didn’t look up. He sliced the broccoli in small pieces, but the contours made it difficult.
“You gotta put oil in the wok.”
The phone rang. Liam reluctantly picked it up. It was Mike’s friend Shaela, from the Saddle Club, wondering if there was anything she could do.
Liam found the electric wok. “Thanks, Shaela,” he said in the middle of her sentence—God, I can’t believe it—or something close, and hung up. Then he plugged in the wok and poured a cup of oil into it.
“That’s a lot of oil,” Bret said with a frown as the phone started ringing again.
“I like it crispy.” Liam answered the phone—Mabel from the horse rescue program—and repeated what he’d told everyone else. By the time Mabel said “I’m sorry” for the fourth time, Liam almost screamed. He appreciated the calls—truly—but they made it all too real. And now the damn oil was popping and smoking.
“Daddy—”
He hung up on Mabel in the middle of a word. “Sorry, Bretster. Sorry.” He tossed the chicken and marinade into the oil. It splattered everywhere. Tiny drops of scalding oil hit his cheeks and stung.
Swearing, he went back to the broccoli.
The phone rang again, and he cut his finger. Blood squirted across the vegetables and dotted the countertop.
Bret screamed, “Daddy, you’re bleeding!”
Riiiiing … riiiiing …
The smoke detector went off, buzzzzzz. Liam reached for the phone and knocked the wok with his hip. Greasy chicken and burning oil and smoke flew everywhere.
It was Myrna from Lou’s Bowl-O-Rama, wondering if there was anything she could do.
When Liam hung up, he was breathing so hard he felt dizzy. He saw Bret, backed against the cold fridge, his whole body shaking, his thumb in his mouth.
Liam didn’t know if he wanted to scream or cry or run. Instead, he knelt in front of Bret. The smoke alarm was still bleating, blood was still dripping from Liam’s forefinger. “I’m sorry, Bretster. But it’s okay.”
“That’s not how Mommy cooks.”
“I know.”
“We’ll starve.”
He put his hands behind Bret’s head and stared into his son’s eyes, as if by pure will he could make Bret feel safe. “We won’t starve. Now, how about we go to town for dinner?”
Bret looked up at him. “I’m gonna go change my clothes, okay?”
Liam hugged him again. It was the only thing he could think of to do.
Bret was crying, softly now, silently, and Liam felt as if his own heart would break at the pathetic silence of those tears.
Chapter Three
Jacey came home earlier than Liam expected, looking wan and tired. She hardly said a word; instead, she kissed his cheek and headed up to her room.
When he was pretty sure that both kids were asleep, Liam went into Mikaela’s office. He opened the door and flicked on the light.
The first thing he noticed was her fragrance, soft and sweet as newfallen rain. Her desk was scattered with piles of haphazardly stacked papers. If he closed his eyes, he could imagine her sitting at that desk, a cup of steaming French Roast coffee in her hand, her gaze glued to the computer screen as she wrote letter after letter on behalf of animals that were being neglected.
On an ordinary day, she would have looked up at him, her mouth turned downward, her beautiful eyes filled with compassion. There’s a mare in Skykomish so starved she can’t stand up … Can we take in one more?
He went to her desk and pushed a pile of newspapers off the chair. They hit the wooden floor with a thwack. He turned on the computer and maneuvered himself onto the Internet, where he ran a search for “Head injury.”
For the next hour, he read about other people’s pain. He filled up almost an entire yellow legal pad with scribbled bits of information—books, specialists, medications. Anything and everything that might make a difference.