shot and hung on posts, murdered one by one by royal hunting parties. But some things cannot be destroyed so easily.
Lea lifted her eyes to look into his. He had been so quiet she hadn’t heard him approach, though she should have known. There were no birds singing. The leaves refused to fall. She thought of Julien. Even if no one else believed her, he would.
She had to stay alive. She had made a promise. How to do so was the question.
Don’t run, her grandmother had told her. Do not be afraid. Be who you are, and know that he will be who he is.
How many wolves were left? Three or four? Half a dozen? Or was it just this single wolf watching her from the edge of the stream, ready to leap if she was the sort of human who had a gun, or a knife, or an eye for murder? Soon enough he saw that she was just a girl sitting by the stream. They were themselves and they knew each other and they could feel one another’s loneliness. When you are a wolf, no place is safe, no one can be trusted. Unless they are what you are. Hunted.
Lea was not as afraid as she had been in the alley. Her heart had stopped then and every breath hurt. She remembered how it felt to bite the soldier, how she had struggled with him and would have done anything to be free of him. But the wolf seemed more reasonable than the soldier.
“Hello,” Lea said. Her voice sounded hollow and pure.
The wolf came toward her.
We were wolves in the forest, chased until there was nowhere to go. When you are not considered human, you learn how to run.
He was bigger than a dog, and ragged. Lea was motionless. When he came close his breath was warm and he smelled like grass, a sweet, deep, dark scent of the woods. He was not young, and he was weary, for he had seen enough of men to last him a lifetime.
Bobeshi had been carrying a pail of water when the wolf came to her. She could have thrown it at him, instead, she had stood unmoving as Lea stood here now. Bobeshi had taken a deep breath and spoken the truth to the creature in the woods.
Brother Wolf, I am not your enemy. You are not the beast that I fear. I fear men and their bloodshed, I fear soldiers with guns, I fear those who hate for no reason, those who leave bodies behind them like fallen leaves, in the grass, in the earth, on the streets of cities that were filled with life, but are empty now. We can walk through those cities together in silence, leaving no footprints, looking for the teeth they pulled from our mouths so that we can plant them in the earth and we can grow up from the dirt despite what they did to us, hanging us by the feet until the blood runs out of our mouths, taking us into alleys, shearing our hair, leaving us naked in the rain.
Lea put her hand out and the wolf came near. She placed her palm on him and felt how alive he was. She did not shake as she had in the alleyway, and time didn’t move forward or back. It stayed exactly where it was. They were here together, at the same moment.
And then the birds began to call, and the leaves fell, and time moved, and the wolf leapt across the stream and left her standing there alone. He had disappeared into the dark woods, but she could still feel how alive he was. She was alive as well. When she walked, Bobeshi walked with her. When she made her way through the forest, her mother was by her side. She had once heard the ancient story from the Torah of how Rachel heard her son’s grief when he came to her grave, for her love for him had never died. If you are loved, you never lose the person who loved you. You carry them with you all your life. They were with her as she ran.
Remember when I loved you above all others and you loved me in return.
Lea stopped setting out tests for Ava. Doing so had served no purpose, and she had found her answer without them. She knew when she saw Ava with the heron on the day he left. Not even magic could stop