on Earth was I this attracted to him? Sure he was very good looking and charming but I have never just been this attracted to one person. I wasn’t even this attracted to Nicholas. At first I was attracted to him and who wouldn’t be? He was tall and handsome, slender, with such beautiful natural blonde hair and the baby blue eyes that could make a girl melt, any woman would have fallen over themselves to get with him which I will admit was probably why I first found him attractive. Once he showed an interest in me it was more like a game I won against every other woman around and when we went anywhere I walked on his arm tall and proud because I knew I had won and my dreams were coming true. Little did I know my dreams would turn into a nightmare. My parents thought he was good for me because he had a successful career and could take care of me while I did what I’ve always wanted to do, write, but a few months into living together he started changing and it hasn’t’ been the same since. I wish I could understand but he won’t talk to me. Who can blame me for looking elsewhere for intimacy? I have always been a passionate person.
As a child I was passionate about reading and animals and as a teenager I was passionate about helping people. I was a member of the key club and volunteered my time every other weekend to homeless shelters, retirement homes, etc. I didn’t realize I was also passionate about love until my first boyfriend. He opened my eyes and my heart and once we broke up I vowed to never settle, yet that is exactly what I’m doing. What am I to do though? I finally wash my hair and turn off the shower. Once I put my clothes on and run downstairs Nicholas was already there waiting on me.
“Nicholas. I’m sorry I wasn’t down here when you got home. Would you like me to fix you something?”
“No. I ate before I came home. What have you been doing? I’ve called a hundred times.” I looked at my phone but did not see one missed call from him but I figured I’d better let it go; all he would do is argue anyway or say something is wrong with my phone. Nothing was ever his fault.
“Oh, I wrote most of the day and went upstairs to rest for a few minutes and I guess time just got away from me. I’m sorry I missed your calls. Was there something you needed?” Nicholas looked at me like he didn’t believe me but he was obviously letting it go.
“I’m going upstairs to go to bed. Go sleep in the other room tonight, I need all the sleep I can get. I have a big meeting tomorrow and I won’t sleep with you waking up every hour.” I know I must look stunned but I answer politely,
“Whatever you need dear.” Nicholas started up the stairs and looked back at me.
“Are you sure that is all you did today?”
I look him right in the eyes as I lie through my teeth,
“Yes, I am sure.” That was good enough I guess since he went right up, took a shower, and lied down.
There was too much weirdness for one day. I have all these unanswered questions about John, Nicholas is acting weird and almost like he knows something is going on and I just don’t know where to start. Then I hear my phone, Lena. It just hit me that I haven’t talked to her since the night I went to meet John.
“Hey Avalon! Wanna meet me and Jaci at the bar tonight? We need to catch up.” Sounded like just what I needed. I could talk through some of this with them.
“Sure. Meet you there at 11.” I decided since I was feeling pretty good I might as well look the part as well. I threw on my black pants with my knee high black boots and a white top that left little to the imagination and met Jaci and Lena at Blue right when I said I would. Jaci had already ordered my drink and didn’t waste any time trying to get me to dish out every single detail.
“So Ava, did you get some sleep after you nice romp in the sack?”
“Yes, Jaci I got some sleep. That is until…” I started to look