her put her face in shadow.
"I gave you my key," she said.
He stepped back and she stepped in. Looked up and froze. She fumbled behind her back and pushed the door shut and leaned hard up against it. Just stared at him. Something in her eyes. Shock, fear, panic, loss, he didn't know.
"What?" he said.
"I thought you were Joe," she said. "Just for a second."
Her eyes filled with tears and she laid her head back against the wood of the door. She blinked against the tears and looked at him again and started crying hard. He stood still for a second and then stepped forward and took her in his arms. She dropped her purse and burrowed into his chest.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I tried on his suit."
She said nothing. Just cried.
"Stupid, I guess," he said.
She moved her head, but he couldn't tell if she was saying yes, it was or no, it wasn't. She locked her arms around his body and just held on. He put one hand low on her back and used the other to smooth her hair. He held her like that for minutes. She fought the tears and then gulped twice and pulled away. Swiped at her eyes with the back of her hand.
"Not your fault," she said.
He said nothing.
"You looked so real. I bought him that tie."
"I should have thought," Reacher said.
She ducked down to her purse and came back with a tissue. Blew her nose and smoothed her hair.
"Oh, God," she said.
"I'm sorry," he said again.
"Don't worry," she said. "I'll be OK."
He said nothing.
"You looked so good, is all," she said. "Just standing there."
She was staring at him quite openly. Then she reached out and straightened his tie. Touched a spot on his shirt where her tears had dampened it. Ran her fingers behind the lapels of his jacket. Stepped forward on tiptoe and locked her hands behind his neck and kissed him on the mouth.
"So good," she said, and kissed him again, hard.
He held still for a second and then kissed her back. Hard. Her mouth was cool. Her tongue was swift. She tasted faintly of lipstick. Her teeth were small and smooth. He could smell perfume on her skin and in her hair. He put one hand low on her side and the other behind her head. He could feel her breasts against his chest. Her ribs, yielding slightly under his hand. Her hair, between his fingers. Her hand was cold and urgent on the back of his neck. Her fingers were raking upward into the stubble from his haircut. He could feel her nails on his skin. He slid his hand up her back. Then she stopped moving. Held still. Pulled away. She was breathing heavily. Her eyes were closed. She touched the back of her hand to her mouth.
"We shouldn't do this," she said.
He looked at her.
"Probably not," he said.
She opened her eyes. Said nothing.
"So what should we do?" he asked.
She moved sideways and stepped into her living room.
"I don't know," she said. "Eat dinner, I guess. Did you wait?"
He followed her into the room.
"Yes," he said. "I waited."
"You're very like him," she said.
"I know," he said.
"Do you understand what I mean?"
He nodded. "What you saw in him you see in me, a little bit."
"But are you like him?"
He knew exactly what she was asking. Did you see things the same? Did you share tastes? Were you attracted to the same women?
"Like I told you," he said. "There are similarities. And there are differences."
"That's no answer."
"He's dead," Reacher said. "That's an answer."
"And if he wasn't?"
"Then a lot of things would be different."
"Suppose I'd never known him. Suppose I'd gotten your name some other way."
"Then I might not be here at all."
"Suppose you were anyway."
He looked at her. Took a deep breath, and held it, and let it out.
"Then I doubt if we'd be standing here talking about dinner," he said.
"Maybe you wouldn't be a substitute," she said. "Maybe you'd be the real thing and Joe was the substitute."
He said nothing.
"This is too weird," she said. "We can't do this."
"No," he said. "We can't."
"It was a long time ago," she said. "Six years."
"Is Armstrong OK?"
"Yes," she said. "He's OK."
Reacher said nothing.
"We broke up, remember?" she said. "A year before he died. It's not like I'm his tragic widow or something."
Reacher said nothing.
"And it's not like you're really his grieving brother either," she said. "You hardly knew him."
"Mad at me about that?"
She nodded. "He was a lonely man. He needed somebody.