down her back, feeling the rough wool of the cloak she still wore. They’d made love in a carriage. A corner of his mouth twitched up at the absurdity. He wasn’t a young lordling given to flights of wagered daring, but she seemed to arouse him no matter what the venue.
She lifted her head and tried to push away from him, but he held her a moment longer. “Hush.”
“We’ll arrive home soon,” she whispered.
She was right, but he was reluctant to let go. To separate from her. But his flesh was weak. She moved again and he felt himself slide from her depths. He sighed and opened his arms.
She scrambled from his lap, almost falling as the carriage tilted around a corner.
“Careful.” He steadied her with a hand, but she soon moved across the carriage and sat on the opposite seat.
She looked away from him.
Ah. Mrs. Dews, that reserved matron, was back. He laid his head wearily on the seat.
“You need to set yourself to rights,” she said, gesturing at his lap without looking. As if the sight offended her.
He glanced down. Well, he certainly wasn’t at his proudest, lying limp and damp against the outside of his breeches.
“Please,” she murmured.
“Have you a kerchief?” he asked politely.
She fished in her sleeve and produced one, holding it out.
He took it, slowly wrapped the bit of linen around his member, and wiped himself off. He handed the handkerchief back. “Thank you.”
Her mouth dropped open, as horrified as if he’d taken a piss in Westminster.
He would’ve laughed, save that the situation was more tragic than amusing. Why must she be so provincial in her attitude toward lovemaking? He narrowed his eyes. Perhaps her husband had been a prude or otherwise inadequate. It came to him that she’d hardly mentioned the man at all, though she professed to have loved him. He opened his mouth to ask her about the dead man, but the carriage shuddered to a halt. He glanced out the window and saw that they’d drawn up at the end of Maiden Lane.
She was already scrambling to leave him.
He rose.
“That’s quite all right,” she said hurriedly. “I can get out by myself.”
He stretched his lips into a thin smile. “I have no doubt that you can, but I intend to walk you to your door.”
“Oh, but…” Her protest died when she saw his face. “Oh.”
After that she descended quietly.
He took her arm as soon as he made the street, not confident that she wouldn’t simply flee ahead. They walked to her door silently, and by the time they made it, he was in a rage, though he couldn’t pinpoint why. She turned as soon as they were abreast of the home, intending, it seemed, to enter without even bidding him good night.
Something snapped. He muttered a curse before hauling her around and slamming his mouth down on hers. This was what he wanted; this was what tamed the beast within him: her soft lips, the quiet sound of her moan as he licked across them. There was a desperate, animal need within him, one he couldn’t fully identify. One he couldn’t understand rationally. It was tearing him apart from within, this need. It wanted her—something from her—though he didn’t know quite what. He only knew that if this terrible need was not assuaged, he very much feared he might lose something within himself. It was a confusing thought, and as he raised his head, he saw that her face revealed her confusion as well. Perhaps she, too, was in the grip of something terrible that she could not define. She opened her mouth as if wanting to say something.
But in the end, she turned away without saying anything.
“Temperance,” he pleaded, for what he wasn’t sure.
She stopped, her back to him. “I… I can’t. Good night.”
And she rapped on the door to her home.
Christ’s bloody body! He turned away, kicking at the uneven paving stones. They couldn’t go on like this. One of them would break, and he wasn’t sure which would be worse: him or her.
The return carriage ride was long and wearisome. By the time he made his own town house, the clocks had already chimed the midnight hour. He gave his hat, cloak, and stick to the butler and was already walking toward the stairs when the man cleared his throat.
“My lord, you have a visitor.”
Lazarus turned and stared at his butler.
The butler bowed. “Lady Caire is in the library.”
Lazarus strode to the library, some nameless trepidation making his