She remembered her chambers here. She remembered leaving Haven to meet Torin for sex—just as she recalled withholding herself from the mating. Being unwilling to share her power, even for the chance at immortality. Even with the promise of her own powers growing with the joining.
Her long-ago self had wanted to master her powers on her own. She hadn’t wanted to join permanently with her Eternal for fear of losing any part of herself to the joint whole.
And that obstinacy and arrogance had cost her much.
“Don’t do that, Shea,” Mairi said, sending Torin a quick look, silently asking for some privacy.
Torin looked at Shea, bowed his head and flashed out, leaving the two women alone.
“Do what?” Shea countered, her footsteps echoing on the stone floor. “Remember? Isn’t that what I’m supposed to be doing?”
“Don’t look back with anger—it does no good and only splinters your energies just when you’ll need them most.”
“What about the anger I feel at you, Mairi?” Shea asked, stopping suddenly to whirl around and face the aunt she loved. “Can I remember that?”
“Shea . . .” Mairi’s features were concerned, her green eyes filled with regret and sorrow.
“Ten years,” Shea said, refusing to be swayed by the intense emotion radiating from her aunt. “Ten years I spent alone. Hunted. Afraid. You were all the family I had left. You’re the one who raised me when I lost my parents. I watched you die and I was all alone. I had no one, Mairi. I mourned you. I cried for you. And all that time”—she threw her hands up high and looked around at the stone walls shot through with veins of silver—“you were here. With your Eternal. Safe. How can I not be angry about that?”
“I don’t know,” Mairi said, moving in close to take Shea’s hands in hers. “I know it’s asking a lot of you. I only know you have to find a way to release that anger or it will carve an opening in your soul for the darkness to creep in.”
Shea shivered.
“I can’t blame you for being furious with me,” Mairi said. “But I didn’t have a choice, Shea. Just as you now don’t have a choice. We are what we were meant to be. We are the chosen. We are the remnants of the last coven. We owe a debt. To nature. To the world. And we must pay it.”
Scrubbing her hands up and down her arms, Shea looked around the cavernous main hall. Images dotted the walls—carved from rock and embedded with silver, the magical charms hummed with power.
There were pentagrams, of course, and simple circles as well. Signifying the sacred ring, the circle was the ancient and universal symbol of unity and female power. Then there were circles with a single dot inside at the center, the Bindu, symbolizing the circle as woman and the dot as man, joined as one. There were circles quartered in equal lines of silver, the Medicine Wheel, symbolizing nature and the four elements. There was a carving of a snake, devouring its own tail, meaning life, rebirth.
And there was the spiral. It dotted each wall, over and over again. The silver spiral, Shea knew, was a symbol known all over the world since time began. It represented the female and the birth, growth, death and rebirth of the soul.
All magical. All powerful. The symbols were powerful enough on their own, but defined by the silver of the ancients, they generated a field of such magnitude even drawing a simple breath in their presence seemed to fill the body with strength and courage.
All of which Shea desperately needed.
In the torchlight, the silver winked and glistened as if alive. As if the heartbeats of long-dead witches had been caught in these walls and now they were silent witness to their descendants’ actions.
She felt another shiver course along her spine, twisting her with cold, with an icy fear that lingered in the pit of her stomach. All of this power triggered not only her memories of unity and strength but other, darker memories as well. Her mind and soul remembered how she had once been drawn from the light to embrace the dark.
And that small part of her that longed to do it all again grew stronger.
“Shea!”
Mairi’s voice brought her up out of her thoughts, but some of them must have lingered in her eyes because her aunt’s features instantly filled with concern. “What is it? What are you remembering?”