and sad and…broken, except nothing I felt made sense. I didn’t recognize her and I couldn’t fathom why she meant so much to me.
The only thing I’m sure of is that a part of me left with her. And the way I feel this morning, it’s still missing.
“Are you all right, son?” Dad asks.
I don’t realize how hard I’m gripping my knife until I open my palm and all that’s left is a warped piece of metal. My anger at losing her lingers and I took it out on the stupid knife.
“Sorry. I was…” I was what? Angry that I let some girl I didn’t know go? “I didn’t sleep well,” I admit.
Dad folds his paper and places it aside, closely analyzing me. “Did you sleep with the window open?”
I don’t remember leaving it open, but I nod when I remember how the cool spring breeze swept against my back when I stumbled into the bathroom this morning.
“There was a bad windstorm last night,” Dad says, his dark eyebrows furrowing. “Earth’s energy travels in the wind, as well as the memories of those long forgotten.”
“The wind also carries magic,” Mom quietly adds. She leaves the stove, a large pan of eggs gripped in her hand.
“Yes,” Dad agrees. “A great deal of magic.”
Mom scoops eggs onto Dad’s plate, forming a large pile. “In the future, when the wind is that rough, I’d like you to sleep with the window closed.”
The scent of cheese, carefully diced onions, and minced garlic seeps into my nose in a mouth-watering sweep. I dig into my eggs the moment the first scoop lands on my plate.
“Why?” I ask, swallowing quickly.
“You’re different, son,” Dad reminds me.
My chewing slows. It’s the same thing I’ve heard all my life. Yeah, some things come easy for me. I’m stronger than older and larger weres. I’m a better tracker and more agile than anyone around. But I don’t feel different. I’m just me, I guess.
“I’m serious, Aric.” Dad tells me. “You achieved your first change before you were two months old. We went to sleep with an infant between us and woke with a wolf pup. Two months. I still don’t think you comprehend the significance.”
Maybe I don’t. The most powerful weres achieve their first change at six months of age following a full moon. The weakest, closer to a year. If you don’t change in the first year, you’re more human and that’s how you’ll stay. It’s something weres who mate with humans deal with. Not pures like us.
My fork hovers over my plate as I give Dad’s words some thought. I shove the large helping quickly into my mouth when I sense him noticing. No were had ever before achieved a change at younger than six months-old. It makes me uncomfortable to be perceived as omnipotent. I’m not. Cut my head off or shoot me up with gold bullets, I’m just as dead as the next were. People around here forget that. They look at me like I’ll single-handedly save the world, or some other impossible stunt. They fall all over themselves, cozying up to me, filling me with compliments they can’t possibly mean. The kissing up, the bowing, the groveling…I hate it.
“There’s no telling how strong you’ll become or what powers you may inherit because of it,” Dad says.
“I had trouble sleeping,” I mumble. “It’s no big deal.” I don’t want anyone making a big fuss over me. It bothers me more when my parents do it. Aside from my small and close-knit circle of friends, they’re the only ones who still see me as Aric, not the savior others have come to expect.
Mom scoops another large helping of eggs onto my plate. Tendrils of steam drift from the pan. “Perhaps. Perhaps not,” she says. “But if you’re this sensitive to what the wind carries, sleep with the window closed. I don’t want to risk a mental attack, or worse, while you’re at your most vulnerable.”
I open my mouth to argue. It’s not that I can’t shut the stupid window or that I need it open. I suppose I just don’t want to focus on how different I am. I’m already weird enough.
Mom jerks. I cringe. My parents sense my discomfort and move on. Not that I like what they’re up to.
“Aidan, behave,” Mom whispers.
“What? Can’t a wolf show his mate a little affection?”
She slaps Dad’s hand playfully off her backside.
I make a face. “I’m right here,” I remind them. “Can’t that wait until I’m gone?”
“Not at all,”