promised before brushing my lips against hers. It was supposed to be fleeting, like the beauty she wasn’t interested in. Just a brief inhale. Just a slight taste.
It was catastrophic.
She bit my lip, tangling her tongue with mine in ecstasy as her frayed hair hit my cheeks. We moaned into each other’s mouths, spilling our truths with guttural sounds. “Nothing,” she promised before slipping her fingers under my shirt and pulling it up.
“Nothing,” I promised while doing the same to her tattered clothes. The soft cotton fell like raindrops on the floor of Lance’s loft, long forgotten the moment I saw her bared to me. I wanted to embrace the contact between our heated skin, feel her pulse pound against mine. I wanted to feel her life burrow under my skin.
I kissed her neck. Devouring her creamy skin with my tongue, and my palate burst with salt and the smell of her citrus body wash. Her fingers clawed at my back in long, slow drags that I knew would leave marks not nearly permanent enough for the feelings I had for this woman. I cupped her neck, holding her soft body in place while guiding her to the counter. I was clumsy while lifting her up to sit, those long flailing legs like curling leaves in a fire as I settled her.
“Can this be nothing, too?” I asked before tugging her bra down and palming her breast.
“Y-yes,” she promised. I leaned down and flicked my tongue out to tease her pebbled peak. Her back arched. My body convulsed. Every nerve ending in my body was hers to command. My brain was saying, kiss her deeper, you fool. But my brotherly heart, the one that had a lifetime with Lance, was begging me to stop. It knew it would eventually belong to her. It was always meant to. I was up against the inevitable, but I wouldn’t go down without a fight.
She pulled at my hair, yanking me back to bare my lips to hers. I kept my eyes open, not wanting to miss a single expression on her angelic face. She sank her teeth into my lips, pulling at the skin like she could chew it off. Her hands trailed over my abs before resting on the waistband of my pants. The tip of her index finger sunk beneath my clothes. Just a little more, and she’d touch me.
“Don’t,” I gritted as her hand moved lower.
“Why not?” she asked in a coy tone while ignoring my plea. Her hand was cold as it wrapped around my cock. I felt her thumb testing my head, smearing precum over the tip. My body jolted. She smiled against my lips.
“Can I stroke you?” she asked. I wanted it, I really did. But recklessness like this required limits.
“Yes,” I relented.
Her curled palm ran up and down my length slowly, as if she knew I’d push her away the moment we hit my invisible boundary. I refused to come in my pants from her touch. Up and down. Up and down. Shivers erupted through my body, and I kissed her harder, showing her with my mouth everything I wanted to do but wouldn’t.
“Stop,” I gasped when I felt the rising blood flow begging to release. Her pout was palpable. I ate it up to ease the sting. I deserved blue balls. It would remind me later, when the guilt and shame were too much to swallow, that I still had a semblance of restraint.
“Touch me,” she begged while spreading those legging-covered legs apart. My hands trailed down her tight stomach. Slowly, ever so slowly. My palm cupped her heat as she whimpered.
“Like this?” I asked.
“Fuck yes,” she moaned on an exhale as I started rubbing her through the tight, thin material. That friction was needy and wanton, begging for her release. I knew that her slick heat was just barriers away, but didn’t trust myself to feel how hot and wet she was for me.
Nothing would ever be enough.
Faster and faster I moved. Kissing. Nipping. Flicking. Palming. Fucking with hands and mouths and secrets I didn’t want to share. “Decker,” she rasped. I moved faster. Stroking her tongue in time to the movements of my hand, dragging her heat along on my skin while begging for the branding of her orgasm. I wanted to feel her fully. Dive my cock so deep inside of her she never thought of anyone else ever again.
She fell apart so beautifully. Like a sigh and a scream. Like the