he?”
“Depends.”
“Depends on what?”
“No, Jamal wasn’t burned alive,” Benedict said. “But the cartels still got their vengeance.”
The proverbial veil was being lifted from my eyes. Well, no, it felt more like a camera coming into focus. The indistinguishable blob in the distance was gaining shape and form. Turn by turn—or in this case, moment by moment—the focus was growing sharper. Natalie, the retreat, our sudden breakup, the wedding, the NYPD, that surveillance photo, her mysterious e-mail to me, the promise she forced me to make six years ago . . . it was all coming together now.
“You faked your own death to save this woman, didn’t you?”
“Her,” he said. “And me too, I guess.”
“But mostly her.”
He didn’t respond. Instead Benedict—or should I call him Jamal?—moved toward the computer screen. His eyes were moist as he reached his finger out and gently touched Marie-Anne’s face.
“Who is she?” I asked.
“My wife.”
“Does she know what you’ve done?”
“No.”
“Wait,” I said, my head spinning with the realization. “Even she thinks you’re dead?”
He nodded. “Those are the rules. That’s part of the oath we take. It is the only way to make sure everyone stays safe.”
I thought again about him sitting here, looking up that Facebook page, staring at those photographs, her status, her life updates—like the one about her being “in a relationship” with another man.
“Who is Kevin Backus?” I asked.
Benedict managed something like a smile. “Kevin is an old friend. He waited a long time for his chance. It’s okay. I don’t want her to be alone. He’s a good man.”
Even the silence pierced the heart.
“Are you going to tell me what’s going on?” I asked.
“Nothing to tell.”
“I think there is.”
He shook his head. “I already told you. I don’t know where Natalie is. I’ve never met her. I’ve never even heard her name except through you.”
“I’m having trouble believing that.”
“Too bad.” He still had the gun in his hand. “What made you suspect me?”
“The GPS in your car. It showed you’d gone to the retreat in Kraftboro, Vermont.”
He made a face. “Dumb of me.”
“Why did you drive up there?”
“Why do you think?”
“I don’t know.”
“I was trying to save your life. I pulled into Jed’s farm right after the cops. Seems you didn’t need my help.”
I remembered now—that car coming up the driveway as the cops found my buried phone.
“Are you going to shoot me?” I asked.
“You should have listened to Cookie.”
“I couldn’t. You of all people should understand that.”
“Me?” There was something akin to fury in his voice now. “Are you out of your mind? You said it before. I did all this to keep the woman I loved safe. But you? You’re trying to get her killed.”
“Are you going to shoot me, yes or no?”
“I need you to understand.”
“I think I do,” I said. “Like we said before, you worked as a prosecutor. You put some really bad people in jail. They tried to seek vengeance on you.”
“They did more than try,” he said softly, gazing again at Marie-Anne’s photograph. “They took her. They even . . . they even hurt her.”
“Oh no,” I said.
His eyes filled with tears. “It was a warning. I managed to get her back. But that was when I knew for certain that the two of us had to leave.”
“So why didn’t you?”
“They’d find us. The Ghana cartel smuggles for the Latin Americans. Their tentacles can reach anyplace. Wherever we’d go, they’d track us down. I thought about faking both of our deaths, but . . .”
“But what?”
“But Malcolm said they’d never buy it.”
I swallowed. “Malcolm Hume?”
He nodded. “See, Fresh Start had people in the area. They heard about my situation. Professor Hume was put in charge of me. He went off protocol though. Sent me here because I thought I could be of value as both a teacher and, if they needed me, someone to help others.”
“You mean, someone like Natalie?”
“I don’t know about that.”
“Yeah, you do.”
“It is very compartmentalized. Different people deal with different aspects and different members. I only worked with Malcolm. I spent some time in that training facility in Vermont, but until a few days ago I never knew about Todd Sanderson, for example.”
“So our friendship,” I said. “Was that part of your work? Were you supposed to keep an eye on me?”
“No. Why would we need to keep an eye on you?”
“Because of Natalie.”
“I told you. I never met her. I don’t know anything about her case.”
“But she does have a case, doesn’t she?”
“You don’t get it. I don’t know.” He shook