and we're losing."
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"Yeah?" Teddy said absently. "And who's 'we'?"
Cawley said, "Men who believe that the way to the mind is not by way of ice picks through the brain or large dosages of dangerous medicine but through an honest reckoning of the self."
"An honest reckoning of the self," Teddy repeated. "Gee, that's good."
Three lines, Cawley had said. Three letters per line probably.
"Listen to me," Sheehan said. "If we fail here, we've lost. Not just
with you. Right now, the balance of power is in the hands of the surgeons,
but that's going to change fast. The pharmacists will take over,
and it won't be any less barbaric. It'll just seem so. The same zombiefication and warehousing that are going on now will continue under a
more publicly palatable veneer. Here, in this place, it comes down to you, Andrew."
"My name is Teddy. Teddy Daniels."
Teddy guessed the first line was probably "you."
"Naehring's got an OR reserved in your name, Andrew."
Teddy looked up from the page.
Cawley nodded. "We had four days on this. If we fail, you go into surgery."
"Surgery for what?"
Cawley looked at Sleehan. Sheehan studied his cigarette.
"Surgery for what?" Teddy repeated.
Cawley opened his mouth to speak, but Sheehan cut him off, his voice worn:
"A transorbital lobotomy.....
Teddy blinked at that and looked back at his page, found the c- and word: "are." "Just like Noyce," he said. "I suppose you'll tall me he's not here, either."
"He's here," Cawley said. "And a lot of the story you told Dr. Sheehan about him is true, Andrew. But he never came back to Boston. You never met him in a jail. He's been here since August of 'fifty. He did get to the point where he transferred out of Ward C and was trusted enough to live in Ward A. But then you assaulted him." Teddy looked up from the final three letters. "I what?"
"You assaulted him. Two weeks ago. Damn near killed him."
"Why would I do that?"
Cawley looked over at Sheehan.
"Because he called you Laeddis," Sheehan said.
"No, he didn't. I saw him yesterday and he - "
"He what?"
"He didn't call me Laeddis, that's for damn sure."
"No?" Cawley flipped open his notebook. "I have the transcript of your conversation. I have the tapes back in my office, but for now let's go with the transcripts. Tell me if this sounds familiar." He adjusted his glasses, head bent to the page. "I'm quoting here - 'This is about you. And, Laeddis, this is all it's ever been about. I was incidental. I was a way in.' " Teddy shook his head. "He's not calling me Laeddis. You switched the emphasis. He was saying this is about you - meaning me - and Laeddis." Cawley chuckled. "You really are something."
Teddy smiled. "I was thinking the same thing about you." Cawley looked down at the transcript. "How about this - Do you remember asking Noyce what happened to his face?"
"Sure. I asked him who was responsible."
"Your exact words were 'Who did this?' That sound right?"
Teddy nodded.
"And Noyce replied - again I'm quoting here - 'You did this.' " Teddy said, "Right, but..."
Cawley considered him as if he were considering an insect under glass. "Yes?"
"He was speaking like..."
"I'm listening."
Teddy was having trouble getting words to connect into strings, to follow in line like boxcars.
"He was saying" - he spoke slowly, deliberately - "that my failure to keep him from getting transported back here led, in an indirect way, to his getting beaten up. He wasn't saying I beat him." "He said, You did this."
Teddy shrugged. "He did, but we differ on the interpretation of what that means."
Cawley turned a page. "How about this, then? Noyce speaking again - 'They knew. Don't you get it? Everything you were up to. Your whole plan. This is a game. A handsomely mounted stage play. M1 this is for you.' " Teddy sat back. "All these patients, all these people I've supposedly known for two years, and none of them said a word to me while I was performing my, um, masquerade the last four days?" Cawley closed the notebook. "They're used to it. You've been flashing that plastic badge for a year now. At first I thought it was a worthy test - give it to you and see how you'd react. But you ran with it in a way I never could have calculated. Go on. Open your wallet. Tell me if it's plastic or not, Andrew."
"Let me finish the code."
"You're almost done. Three letters to go. Want help, Andrew?"
"Teddy."
Cawley shook his