Secrets Worth Keeping (Finding my Home #2)- Nikita Parmenter Page 0,25
seating in here, I shoot a quick look at Luc and he nods already thinking the same thing. Good.
I have a feeling if I just bought more chairs we’d probably all end up on the bed together anyway, all of us wanting to be closer to her. So we’ll probably end up just getting a bigger bed. Those years without her were dark, for all of us and there wasn’t really an end in sight until Atlas suggested that we look for her. Even coming in and not having known her, he saw how important she was to us. We didn’t really get to start looking for her though because he disappeared and without him we didn’t know where to start or have the connections that he seemed to have in order to try.
Although those dark years sucked massively, they made us stronger, harder, downright nasty if we have to be. They taught us the lengths that we would go to protect, they made us better men for Ever. Especially since she’s in the fragile situation she is currently. They prepared us to protect her now and there isn’t any fucking length we wouldn’t go to in order to do it.
She’s not just my heart, she’s all of ours.
We lost her once and like hell will we ever lose her again, unless she wants to go, obviously we would never make her do something she doesn’t want to, but I pray to any fucking deity that will listen that, that never fucking happens because me and my brothers wouldn’t just break we’d shatter into millions of tiny jagged pieces and there’d be no fucking saving us.
Like I said, the depth of emotion that I feel for Ever, is fucking scary sometimes but I welcome it because it means that she’s fucking here. Sometimes I just can’t believe that we actually got her back, that she is actually here. I keep panicking that I’m going to wake up and she will be gone again, without word, without a trace, just fucking gone, just like last time.
Jensen became a shell of himself and as the years went by he only got worse, that darkness in him that Ever seems to love, that was always present the last couple of years, it’s Ever who’s bought the light back. I have no fucking Idea how the guy managed to stop himself from killing Jeremy, probably by sheer force of will and the fact that if he did he would be caught and that means he wouldn’t see Ever, too many witnesses. I’d say I’m surprised that we would be willing to kill to keep her safe but I’m really not. She’s been through hell but no more, she has the six of us and most likely Atlas too if he does turn up at the cabin, no one will hurt her again.
The best thing about it though? She can stand by us side by side, she revels in the darkness we crave.
She’s honestly fucking perfect for us.
She always has been.
Chapter Seven
Cash
“Dude!” Jensen yells as he kicks my knee from where he’s still perched on Ever, snapping me out of my spiralling thoughts.
“Huh?” I answer.
“You ok?” Ever asks me, a worried crease in her forehead making her nose wrinkle in the cutest way possible.
“I’m fine, il mio Cuore just thinking” I smile softly at her trying to reassure her, “so what’s going on with mine and Jensen’s parents then?”
“You were right about your mom when she drinks wine Cash” she smirks as I groan.
Oh fuck what did she say, before I can ask though she continues although I sense she’s left something out and is telling us an edited version.
“She told me that when she was a teenager, when all of our parents were in school together still, she had a polyamorous relationship, Marc was one of her partners” she pauses and my heart starts pounding in my chest as I share a look with the guys, “Rich was also one of her partners” she says shocking the shit out of all of us as she darts her beautiful navy eyes in Jensen’s direction, I start chuckling as my gaze lands on him, the dude has literally got his mouth hanging open and staring up at Ever in shock, she gently puts a finger under his chin and closes his mouth again, chuckling.
“There were two more guys as well, but they weren’t as committed as Rich and Marc. It all fell apart when they left