“I don’t know how to love you back Mason.” The words slip from my mouth before I can rethink them. There’s no way I could love him. I couldn’t possibly do that and there is no way he could ever really love me.
“Get over it Whitley. I told you I’m not lettin’ this go. You can run, but I’ll catch you. You can hide, but I’ll find you. I can’t let this feelin’ go. I won’t.” He narrows his eyes at me. All I can do is stand there in shock.
“I don’t know what I’m doing,” I admit as tears slowly start falling down my cheeks.
Mason moves toward me slowly and his hands come up to cup my face. His thumbs run over my cheeks soothingly while his tongue runs over his bottom lip.
“You don’t need to know what you’re doin’. We’re human Whit. We make mistakes. It’s normal. We take it day by day. That’s it. I’m not askin’ you for the fuckin’ world, Whit. I’m only askin’ for your heart.” His words sting. My chest aches as more tears fall.
“I can’t give you that,” I say softly.
“You can. You just don’t know how.”
His lips press against mine and the world slowly fades away. All the blood, death, drugs, destruction… gone. It all slowly vanishes. All that’s left is Mason and the steady beat of his heart under my palm where I laid it on his chest. Every thump.
His tongue pushes into my mouth. I moan around it. He feels so right. Why is this so wrong? Why can’t I be happy for once? So many, many things have ruined parts of me, but when I’m with Mason I feel some of who I used to be coming back. I don’t know how he does it, but I feel it.
He’s walking us backwards and my legs hit the couch. Mason slowly lowers me down and climbs between my thighs. His lips never leave mine. This isn’t what we do. We fuck. This is more. It’s so much more than our normal hard fucks. This is slow and intimate. This is him showing me exactly what he wants. He wants my heart and soul, but I don’t know that I have either to give him. I’ve been lost for so long that I can’t find the light at the end of the tunnel.
“This is everything Whit. You get me? Do you understand?” he asks as his lips are lingering over mine. His eyes burn with such intensity that even in the dark they look like they’re on fire.
I nod my head slowly when his lips come back to meet mine. My hands wrap around his waist pulling him to me. Mason groans and reaches between us to shove his sweatpants down his thighs.
As soon as he shifts I can tell he’s already hard and ready to go. He thrusts into me and I moan into his mouth. He keeps kissing me like I’m the air he needs to breathe. His hips roll as heat races through my body. I’ve never felt anything like this before. It’s a calming, loving sensation that dances through my veins. It’s all Mason.
He pulls his mouth from mine and trails kisses down my jaw and over to my neck. His hips keep me on the edge as they slow then quicken just to slow down again. My mind is a complete haze as Mason takes me over. I open my eyes and realize he’s staring down at me. I hadn’t even realized I’d closed my eyes. Slowly I drag my eyes down his body to watch the way his stomach clenches with each powerful, yet gentle thrust.
“Tell me I can keep you Whitley. I need to you say the words darlin’.”
I pull my eyes back up to his, and I’m lost. He’s perfect. He’s everything I could ever want, yet I can’t find the words to say to him. Tears streak down my cheeks. Mason seems to understand. His eyes soften as he leans down and kisses me again. His light kisses send me hurtling through space. My mind and body explode in ways that I never even knew were possible. Mason comes hard as his breath catches in his throat.
He slowly pulls out of me and climbs off the couch. He reaches down and scoops me up into his arms cradling me to his chest. Without another word he carries me to the bedroom taking