when his chest bumped mine, and I lowered my hands to brace myself against the door behind me.
He never once took his eyes from mine. “I won’t lie and say I haven’t thought about pinning you against a wall and fucking you into submission.” My eyes widened at his words, and he smiled. “But I promise that when it comes to you, I’ve thought of so much more than just that over these last few weeks.”
I swallowed past the lump that had formed in my throat. He was being so honest, yet I couldn’t do the same, and that thought made my chest ache.
He deserved more.
“I told you I can’t walk away, and I meant it. Because no matter how hard I’ve tried, I can’t get your smile and even your damn attitude out of my head. I want you,” he whispered, his lips now only inches from my own. “And not just for one night.”
I sagged back against the door when his mouth covered mine in a tantalizing kiss. I gave in to my need for him because I honestly had no fight left when it came to this man. I was done trying to push him away. I needed to feel him against me, taking me over and making me forget everything that still haunted me.
When I lifted my hands and wrapped them around his neck, fisting his hair, he groaned and pressed his body to mine more aggressively.
“Do you trust me?” he asked as he pulled back and looked at me. “I need to know you trust me fully. That you know I would never hurt you.”
I wondered why he was asking such a question, then he answered without me having to ask.
“I don’t know your past, but something tells me it includes some asshole that didn’t treat you the way you deserve. I need you to know you don’t have to worry about that with me. Because no matter where we go from here or what may happen between us, I would never intentionally hurt you. You’re safe with me,” he assured me as he looked deep into my eyes. “Always safe, baby.”
My hesitation faded away with his words.
I may have been wrong to give all my power over to this man. After all, I was that naive once before and things hadn’t ended well. But I prayed like hell that men like Jase were one in a million and Ashton was true to his word. Because I couldn’t live the rest of my life judging everyone around me by the things that monster had put me through.
It wasn’t fair. To them or to me.
“I trust you,” I whispered, and relief filled his eyes as he took my hand and led me toward the open door of my bedroom.
Each kiss along my stomach felt like a warm shock to the rest of my body. I couldn’t keep my back from arching off the bed as he moved lower. My entire body shook with pure desire as I imagined what he would do next. I couldn’t look, because I had a feeling if I did that I would fucking shoot through the ceiling with how aroused I would become.
After Ash spent what felt like hours kissing me and caressing me, he began to slowly undress me, kissing each part of my body as he exposed it. It was the most intimate thing I had ever felt.
I was surprised I wasn’t afraid of this man, but he gave me no reason to fear him. The way he touched me made me feel so safe, so treasured. His words were filthy, yet there was something sweet about them too. I’d never had a lover who talked to me the way Ashton did. Then again, I’d been a lot more sheltered than he had.
I fisted the sheets at my sides when Ashton traced the contour of my hip with his finger before trailing his fingers lower. He moaned when he found me wet.
“I knew this pussy would be perfect,” he said as if talking to himself. Still fighting the urge to lift my head and look down at him, I gasped when I felt his tongue follow the path his finger had just taken. “So fucking sweet,” he whispered, but loud enough I could hear. “So needy. You like that, don’t you, baby?”
“Mmhm,” I whimpered as he used his hand to open me just before licking me once again. “Oh my God,” I gasped as my hips bucked.
Ashton slipped his