window on a tropic beach opened in my head. A mellow breeze wafted in, and I suddenly no longer cared about what might become of my brainwaves. I sat down in the chair.
He opened one of several wall cabinets and brought out a pair of battered, taped-up headphones with crisscrosses of metal mesh over the earpads. He plugged them into the amp-like device and held them out to me.
“If I hear ‘In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida,’ I’m taillights,” I said.
He smiled and said nothing.
I put the headphones on. The mesh was cool against my ears. “Have you tried this on anyone?” I asked. “Will it hurt?”
“It won’t hurt,” he said, not answering the first question at all. As if to contradict this, he gave me a mouthguard of the type basketball players sometimes wear, then smiled at my expression.
“Just a precaution. Pop it on in.”
I popped it on in.
From his pocket he took a white plastic box no bigger than a doorbell. “I think you’ll—” But then he pressed a button on the little box, and I lost the rest.
• • •
There was no blackout, no sense of time passing, no discontinuity at all. Just a click, very loud, as if Jacobs had snapped his fingers beside my ears, although he was standing at least five feet away. Yet all at once he was bending over me instead of standing beside the thing that wasn’t a Marshall amp. The little white control box was nowhere to be seen, and my brain had gone wrong. It was stuck.
“Something,” I said. “Something, something, something. Happened. Happened. Something happened. Something happened, happened, something happened. Happened. Something.”
“Stop that. You’re all right.” But he didn’t sound sure. He sounded scared.
The headphones were gone. I tried to get up and shot one hand into the air instead, like a second-grader who knows the right answer and is dying to give it.
“Something. Something. Something. Happened. Happened, happened. Something happened.”
He slapped me, and hard. I jerked backward and would have fallen over if the chair hadn’t been placed almost directly against the metal side of his workshop.
I lowered my hand, stopped repeating, and just looked at him.
“What’s your name?”
I’ll say it’s something happened, I thought. First name Something, last name Happened.
But I didn’t. “Jamie Morton.”
“Middle name?”
“Edward.”
“My name?”
“Charles Jacobs. Charles Daniel Jacobs.”
He produced the little bottle of heroin and gave it to me. I looked at it, then handed it back. “I’m good for now. You just gave me some.”
“Did I?” He showed me his wristwatch. We had arrived at midmorning. It was now quarter past two in the afternoon.
“That’s impossible.”
He looked interested. “Why’s that?”
“Because no time passed. Except . . . I guess it did. Didn’t it?”
“Yes. We spoke at great length.”
“What did we talk about?”
“Your father. Your brothers. Your mother’s passing. And Claire’s.”
“What did I say about Claire?”
“That she married an abusive man and kept quiet about it for three years because she was ashamed. She finally opened up to your brother Andy, and—”
“His name was Paul Overton,” I said. “He taught English at a fancy prep school in New Hampshire. Andy drove down there and waited in the parking lot and when Overton showed up, Andy beat the living shit out of him. We all loved Claire—everybody did, I suppose even Paul Overton did in his way—but she and Andy were the oldest, and they were especially close. Is that what I told you?”
“Almost word for word. Andy said, ‘If you touch her again, I’ll kill you.’”
“Tell me what else I said.”
“That Claire moved out, got a protection order, and sued for divorce. She moved to North Conway and got another teaching job. Six months after the divorce became final, Overton drove up there and shot her dead in her classroom while she was correcting papers after school. Then he killed himself.”
Yes. Claire dead. Her funeral had been the last time what remained of my big, brawling, usually happy family was together. A sunny day in October. When it was over, I drove to Florida just because I had never been there. A month later I was playing with Patsy Cline’s Lipstick in Jacksonville. Gas prices were high, the climate was usually warm, and I traded my car for a Kawasaki. Not a good decision, as it turned out.
In one corner of the room was a small fridge. He opened it and brought me a bottle of apple juice. I drank it down in five long gulps.
“See if you can stand up.”
I rose from the chair and staggered. Jacobs caught