generational wealth, and while I’m not destitute, I didn’t grow up with Rembrandts on the wall either. This past summer I was there for his grandparents’ fiftieth wedding anniversary gala. The place settings at the table featured countless plates, forks, spoons, and crystal glasses. The flower arrangements were three feet tall. I legit had to look around them to see Donovan—who wasn’t sitting next to me but across the table next to an eligible girl from his parent’s circle of friends. My retro yellow velvet dress didn’t fit in with the black cocktail dresses the other women wore. My black thigh-high heeled boots were cheap pleather. My lavender hair made everyone squint.
His grandmother passed me in the hall before dinner, raked her eyes over me, and curled her lip. Dear, the catering staff stays in the kitchen, and shouldn’t you pull your hair up and wear something more appropriate? Then she asked me to refresh her champagne.
The socialite who sat next to me during dinner went on and on about her daughter’s debutante ball while the man on the other side of me (her husband) rested his hand on my back every time he mentioned one of his vacation homes or his investment portfolio, which was a lot. Donovan wouldn’t meet my gaze across the table, and an anxious feeling began to grow and grow and grow. Short story: I drank a little too much champagne, ate tiramisu with an oyster fork, then asked for A.1. Steak Sauce for my filet.
You’d have thought I murdered someone the way his mom gaped at me.
Cold December wind whips my hair around my face, obscuring my view as I grip my phone. My shoulders slump as my fingers hover over my cell, waiting for a text from him—the one he needs to send right freaking now.
I wait a full minute. Crickets.
I jerk up my backpack and walk.
He didn’t mention my birthday.
Stomping up the steps, I chew on my bottom lip as I wrestle with my emotions. He is forgetful. On top of his classes and volunteer work, he’s also the vice president of the Kappa fraternity.
It’s fine, I rationalize. He just got in from a weekend out of town, saw he got into Harvard, and that’s all he’s thinking about.
Maybe he’s planning something and wants to surprise me later. I wince. He really isn’t a surprise kind of guy—except for our meet cute. I soften as I recall that night in the library.
He was with his fraternity brothers at a table next to mine, his brown eyes behind a pair of modern black frames as he checked me out. When I left my table to find a book, I came back to find a note on my copy of The Outsiders.
I have his message memorized.
* * *
‘You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how.’
Let me introduce myself. I’m your next boyfriend. Yeah, let that horrible come-on line sink in, but the sentiment is sincere. Cross my heart and hope to die—not really, but you know what I mean.
There are three things about you that caught my attention. You smell like sunshine, your hair needs my hands in it, and I’ll be honest… I dig your kickass shoes. Those sparkly Chucks are a conversation starter.
Where are you from?
Are you new here?
What are you doing after this?
Please tell me you’re single.
Also… I’m not a serial killer.
Or an alien. (People in Walker really dig that stuff.)
Or a player.
Or a douchebag.
Or a dick.
Wait? Are those last three kind of all the same thing? Maybe? Anyway…
I’m just the guy in front of you, at a table in the library, baring his soul.
I’ll wait for you outside when the library closes. If you pack up and leave now, I’ll know it’s a no.
Your first reaction to this note may be to run as far away as you can, but you only live once and what do you have to lose?
Fate has a way of bringing people together, and maybe we’re meant to be. Give me a chance to prove I’m much better in person than on paper. I haven’t seen you smile and I want to.
Kappa Boy (at the table across from you)
* * *
When I picked up the messily scrawled message to study it, I looked over and two of the three guys at the Kappa table froze.
Had to be from one of them.
The author of the note noticed that I didn’t smile. As a transfer student, I was down that night, worried about