I saw it myself.
Not that it forgives anything he’s done — and continues to do — but the fact that he won’t allow anyone, even his own son, to speak to me that way means something.
I don’t know what it is. But it does.
“Remember what you told me last year?” Aiden’s left eye twitches. “The part about how I have no respect for my mother’s memory? Who, between the two us, doesn’t have respect for her, Jonathan? Huh? Because I sure as shit am not sitting with her doppelgänger on my lap.”
His words slam into me, even though Jonathan remains unaffected. My fingers continue their quivering and I clear my throat. “I…I’m going to go.”
“Stay. This is my house and if he doesn’t like what he sees, he’ll be the one to leave,” Jonathan says with his usual authoritative tone of voice, then addresses Aiden, “After all, you didn’t hesitate to marry Ethan’s daughter.”
“Elsa. Her name is Elsa, Jonathan, and she had nothing to do with whatever feud you have with Ethan.”
Stepping backwards, I inch towards the door. Not only do I not want to be caught in the middle of a father-son quarrel, but I also don’t want to be the cause behind it. I don’t want to witness the two people Alicia loved more than the world itself go at each other’s throats.
It’s almost like a fight between a king and the rebel crown prince.
By the time I’m at the door, Jonathan throws me a disapproving glance, probably because of the way I’m leaving after he insisted I stay.
We’re different, he and I. While he doesn’t care about yelling at Aiden, I do. The scene breaks my heart.
Jonathan is an emotionless man. Or more accurately, his feelings don’t resurface, so I didn’t expect him to have a sappy father-son relationship with Aiden. But I also didn’t expect this hostility either. I thought Alicia’s early, unexpected death would’ve brought them together. Apparently not.
That sure as hell doesn’t help my guilt trip towards Aiden. Maybe things would’ve been different if I’d been there for him since the funeral.
Or if I hadn’t fucked his father.
I hang my head as I grab my bag and make a beeline towards my car. My phone dings and I smile as Layla’s name appears on the screen.
Layla: Are you late because of daddy kink?
Layla: Say yes and I’ll pay for lunch for a week.
Layla: It can even be a lie. Just say yes.
I smile and shake my head. Despite being a devout Muslim who prays five times a day, fasts during Ramadan, drinks no alcohol, has no sex before marriage, and eats no pork, Layla has the wildest fantasies, I swear.
What I love about her the most is that she isn’t afraid to let those fantasies show or to even joke about them. She also doesn’t judge how others live their lives as long as they don’t judge hers. She’s never once tried to apply her beliefs on me. Back at uni, she accepted me the way I was, scars and all, and never probed hard about my past.
The first time she brought me to her home for Eid and her family welcomed me to their table, as if I’d always belonged there, was when I found some sort of balance after struggling with it for so long.
Aurora: No.
Layla: You’re so cruel. How could you kill the fantasy so brutally? *crying emoji* X3
Biting my lower lip, I type.
Aurora: But I am sore.
Layla: I knew it!
Layla: Details, mate. Details! You can’t keep me hanging like that. The suspense is killing me here.
Aurora: I’ll be in the office in a bit.
Layla: Fine, I’ll be productive until you come. By the way, why did you leave early yesterday? Are you okay?
The memories of Stephan and the panic attack I had nearly assault me all over again.
But since Jonathan flipped me on my stomach and fucked me so thoroughly, those have been the least of my worries.
Go figure.
Ever since the day I walked into that police station and uncovered the murder of not only one woman but seven, he has been in the forefront of my mind.
He has been the first thought I wake up to every day and the last thought I sleep to every night.
Until last night.
Actually, it started after Jonathan taught me in the roughest way that my body is, in fact, not dead.
I slide into my car and place my bag on the passenger seat. When I lift my head, I’m startled by the shadow