“Maybe I don’t know what she wants, but I know she’s your mate. And I know you need to start somewhere, Xander. The longer you two go without talking, the worse it will get. So…” He let the words trail off as his gaze darted around the sitting room, searching for inspiration. In a flash of motion, he grabbed a fur throw from a nearby chair. “Take this. Tell her you thought she might be cold. See what she says. If nothing else, she’ll appreciate the gesture.”
“I don’t know, Rafe,” Xander murmured, ignoring the blanket as he glanced at Lyana's solitary figure once more.
“Just go, Xander.”
Rafe pushed him, but Xander held his ground, digging his feet in. If he was going to talk to his mate, it would be on his terms. He squared his shoulders, shook the tension from his wings, and turned toward the door of his own accord. Of course, he didn’t take a step forward, because, well, his feet were frozen with fear, his heart thrummed wildly, and his tongue felt fat and idle, with nothing to say. Instead, he stood there for a minute, gathering his courage, trying to take deep, even breaths.
Finally, he gave in and turned around to snatch the blanket—the gods if Rafe’s idea wasn’t a good one—but when he looked at his brother, he paused.
Rafe stared out the window, the muscles in his jaw clenched.
Something in his eyes took Xander back to a different time, years ago, when he’d found his brother in much the same position, standing in the rubble of a scorched room, staring at the sun burning in the morning sky. It had been the day of the king’s funeral, but Rafe had been more interested in paying his respects to his mother, a woman no one else bothered to remember. He’d gone to her room to lay flowers on the balcony and had remained there during the royal funeral, until Xander had come to fetch him. There had been tears on his cheeks then, which had long since dried. For some reason, that same silent, haunted goodbye danced across his lips now as it had then. Though for the life of him, Xander couldn’t imagine why.
“Rafe?”
His brother flinched and jerked his head toward Xander—too quickly. “What?”
“Nothing, just—” Xander knitted his brows, unsure why he felt like an intruder but unable to combat the sensation. “Thank you. Thank you for everything.”
Rafe’s face softened. “I’d do anything for you.”
“I know,” Xander replied, still torn without fully grasping why.
As though he sensed it, Rafe turned on his heels and crossed the common area, retreating to his room and leaving Xander with no more reason to delay.
I can do this, he thought, clutching the blanket, trying to bring his mind back to the task at hand. She’s a girl. Just a girl. I’ve talked to many before.
But she wasn’t just a girl.
She was his mate.
And somehow, that changed everything.
Xander shivered when he stepped outside, not just from the cold. He hastily tightened his jacket and flapped his wings, firing his muscles to warm his body as he flew the short distance and landed a few feet behind her, boots scuffing loudly against the snow. She glanced halfway over her shoulder, stopping when she realized who was there.
He cleared his throat. “I brought you a fur. I thought you might be cold.”
The princess didn’t respond. She just returned her gaze to the open sky, leaving Xander standing there like a fool.
I knew this was a stupid idea.
I knew she wanted to be left alone.
I knew—
“Well, are you going to give it to me? Or did you just come to gawk in the cold instead of behind the crystal? Speaking as someone who grew up in a palace made of the stuff, I can assure you, it’s not the stealthiest of materials for spying.”
“I— I’m—” Xander winced, and then sighed before stepping forward. “Here.”
Lyana turned, accepting his offer, flicking her gaze briefly to his face before returning it to the blanket. She tossed the fur over her shoulders and crouched back down to perch on the rock, staring out at the world.
Xander was unsure whether she wanted him to go or to stay. But Rafe had been right—this was his mate, and sooner or later, they would have to talk to each other. Why not start now? He wasn’t normally such a blithering fool. In fact, at home some people might have called him charming. Forgoing the practice grounds had given him plenty