Norma Jean - By Amanda Heath Page 0,40

the music. That’s when I started thinking with my dick instead of my brain.

Yeah I admit I loved this girl with my whole heart, but she caused me years’ worth of regrets and heart ache. I don’t want that again. I need someone safe, someone who doesn’t make me crazy and impulsive. Though I had that and she couldn’t take it when I wouldn’t love her back.

“You need to leave.” I’m sitting on my knees behind her, with her butt still at my groin. Not the most tactful I admit but I seriously can’t do this again. I have too much going on at the moment to deal with past shit with Norma.

“Excuse me?” she turns her head to look up at me before rolling over and bringing her knees up to her chest and wrapping her arms around them.

“Leave Norma. I can’t deal with you right now. I didn’t mean for this to happen.” I sound like the biggest asshole but I honestly don’t care.

“You didn’t mean for this to happen?” she whispers looking down at her toes. “Okay. I’m sorry.” She gets up off the bed and I have to force myself to continue to look at the bed. No need to look at her perfect body and the way her hair falls down to her waist.

I want to say it’s my fault, not hers. The words never leave my lips and I’m fighting instinct to pull her back on to the bed with me. I want to do what we just did over and over again. I want to hold her in my arms and never let her go. But I don’t. I really don’t want that. Yeah keep telling yourself that buddy.

After I hear the bedroom door shut I lay back down on the bed on my back and stare up at the ceiling. I had no idea where she even was. I can’t believe she was under my nose like this. I can’t believe she has never run into Creed. Hell they are in the same town. I guess she goes to OBU since that’s where her dad went. I wonder if that fucker knew she was here. That would be something his shady ass would do.

Macy’s birthday was a couple of days ago and while I was in town I ran into Dean who invited me to stay the weekend up here. He shares an apartment with Creed but that asshole had to go bail his mom out of jail and won’t be back till Monday. Luckily I don’t have to see him.

To say that we have fallen out is an understatement. It wasn’t really just one thing but a whole mess of shit. Like the fact he stopped talking to me every day 2 years ago. One day he was calling to tell me about what was going on with him then I had to start calling him. He would give me clipped answers and find excuses to get off the phone with me. Now he doesn’t even answer, not that I call him.

The last time I did call him, was because he went home one weekend and beat the shit out of my sister. She refused to press charges and I have no idea what the hell she was even doing with him. She wouldn’t tell me and it’s safe to say that bugged the shit out of me.

He is cut from the same cloth as his mother. The only reason I even talk to Dean is because he started dating my cousin Paige, and my aunt Carol asked me to keep an eye on them. Not that she has to worry. Dean couldn’t be better to Paige. Carol just has an issue with Dean growing up poor and Paige…well not. Carol isn’t the best of people if you ask me. She is my dad’s sister so I can’t be all that surprised.

My phone starts ringing from my pants on the floor and I lean over the side of the bed to fish it out. It’s my buddy Declan up in Fayetteville. We have a lot in common. Both on the football team, and we both have crazy ass relationships. Plus his best friend tripped out when Dec started dating his little sister. Mine is just a douche bag. We got pretty close this past year and he let me move into his extra bedroom. Now he has a really full house with his little brother, his girlfriend, and two of his