sharp edges of the card that I’d received from the foreign doctor. William Acton, General Surgeon. Curling my fingers around it, I’d thought perhaps I would contact him after all.
* * *
On Tuesday afternoon I went to see Hui, escaping dinner with Mrs. Tham’s family. She’d hinted that I ought to be there that evening because there was a young man she wanted me to meet: her husband’s nephew, who’d been jilted by some minx and was now determined to get married before the end of the year. Just to show that he could, apparently. I didn’t think this boded well for anybody.
I took Shin’s ring with me, as Mrs. Tham was bound to snoop while I was out. The garnets sparkled like pomegranate seeds. Garnets were the bloodstone, meant for protection. When I was a little girl, an Indian peddler had come by selling necklaces of round garnet beads strung on cotton thread.
“Keep your daughter safe from harm. From evil, nightmares, and wounds. Also good for love,” he’d said to my mother, and surprisingly, she’d bought me one.
I’d kept that string of garnets for years, until one day I’d gone wading in the river with Ming and the frayed cotton string had finally snapped. The tiny beads slipped into the running water, and were never found. Remembering this, I tucked the ring back in my pocket. It wasn’t mine to lose.
* * *
Hui was standing in front of her mirror, powdering her face with a look of determination. A good powdering was supposed to take at least ten minutes to apply, the powder puff not rubbed but slapped against the face, mouth, ears, eyelids, and neck. Slap, slap, slap, with lots of vigor. A really good application of powder should last for hours, so that your skin emerged “tinted, smooth, and lovely”—according to the magazines. I wouldn’t know, as I’d never managed to devote more than thirty seconds to my powder puff.
“Ji Lin! What are you doing here?” Hui looked pleased.
I sat on her bed. “Are you working tonight?” I’d hoped that she was free to have dinner at one of the roadside stalls that grilled stingray wrapped in banana leaves, but she was clearly getting ready for an evening out.
“No. It’s a call-out.”
Call-outs paid well, much better than dancing, and Hui had no day job like my dressmaking apprenticeship. She couldn’t bear it, she’d said. Snipping and measuring all day, though I’d pointed out that call-outs seemed worse.
“Not to me,” she’d said. She was always vague about what happened on call-outs; there was dinner and some form of physical contact though she said it was mostly kissing and being felt up. “It’s at a restaurant—there’s a limit to what they can do in public.”
I’d once asked her if she’d ever done anything else. She’d looked amused and closed her eyes in a long blink. “Of course not.” We’d both laughed uncomfortably. Sometimes I worried about her.
“You’re looking gloomy today,” said Hui.
Not wanting to explain all the details of the weekend, I simply said we’d returned the finger to the hospital. I thought she’d be glad to hear that, but she lifted her eyebrows.
“And who is ‘we’?”
“My brother and I.” I remembered Shin’s breath against the nape of my neck when he’d held me, reluctantly, under the angsana trees. The blood rose in my face, and the more I tried to will it away, the worse it got.
Hui examined me carefully. “This is your stepbrother, correct?”
“Yes. He’s getting married. Or at least, he’s serious about someone. I’m glad for him.”
I was afraid Hui would make fun of me, but instead she put her arm around me. “Oh, darling. Men are beasts, aren’t they?”
“It makes me feel lonely, that’s all. We’ve known each other since we were ten years old. I’m … I’m very fond of him.” Such inadequate words. They couldn’t even begin to explain how restless and disturbed I felt. And perhaps I was confusing simple affection with something else. “It’s ridiculous, anyway.”
Hui got up and walked over to her dressing table. “But you’re not related.” Her eyes watched me in the mirror. She was playing with the rouge pot, opening and closing the lid absently. “I’d like to meet him, this stepbrother of yours.”
“Why?”
“Because men are liars.” There was a sharpness in her tone I’d never heard before. I knew Hui had left some village to come to Ipoh and that she rarely went home, but other than that I’d tried not to pry, accepting whatever she