become Mrs. Trevor James. Butterflies were swarming all over my stomach; I was ready for him to kiss his bride. We exchanged our vows wearing cheesy grins the entire time. He slid my ring on my finger and I beamed. I slid his on his finger and beamed even more. He touched my baby bump and whispered something to our daughter. He really was an amazing man. I gazed into his bluish gray eyes as the Justice of the Peace pronounced us husband and wife. As soon as he said you may now kiss your bride, our mouths met and I knew from this moment that my life was now complete. I had everything I could ever possibly need.
“I am the luckiest man alive. I can’t believe we are finally married. I love you so much.” He kissed my lips again with such a force my knees almost buckled.
My breathing was uneven as I responded, “I love you so much too.” Hand in hand we walked to the car to head to our reception. This really was the happiest day of my life.
It felt hot and I couldn’t figure out where the heat was coming from. I opened my eyes and noticed my sheets were soaking wet. It was also almost five in the afternoon. I looked frantically for Trevor before I realized it was just a dream. A dream that was never coming true because he’d betrayed me and our love.
‘Nothing Compares to You’ was still playing on my IPod. I had no idea how long it had been playing. I turned it off and I climbed out of the sweat soaked sheets and almost gagged as I stripped them off. I decided to take a shower before I washed the sheets. In the warm water of the shower, I let myself relax and shed the rest of my tears. I’d never know that day to come, because we were no longer getting married of having a baby. I’d be ok though. I knew I’d be. It would just take time. I quickly dressed then went to throw my sheets in the washer. Halley wasn’t home but left a note that read: ‘Going to The Lounge with Marcus. If you need ANYTHING, do not hesitate to call me!’ I crumbled her note and threw it away. I wasn’t going to be sitting at home tonight. Not me.
I threw on my blue jean skirt and a sequin tank top. Once my hair was fixed and my makeup applied, I got in my car and drove to another bar up the street. Gill’s bar was sort of competition for The Lounge. I wasn’t sure if they had a band but they had whiskey and that was ok with me. For the first time in years I’d have to pay for my drinks. I was prepared but also scared of what this tab could look like by the end of the night because I was here to enjoy myself and forget all about the shitty things that happened.
Gills was a hole in the wall like The Lounge and also like us, they attracted a lot of the young crowd. They also had amazing food. Their boudin balls were amazing but tonight I wasn’t here for the food. I was here to begin moving on with my life. There was some sort of indie looking band getting ready to take the stage but until then, they had a DJ playing music. Dance music. Ohmigod, I haven’t danced in forever. I ordered two shots back to back and threw them back like nothing. I was really sad I didn’t have Halley here to dance with me but I was here to have fun and she was with Marcus. I had no problems dancing alone and having fun. I made my way out to the dance floor. I found an empty spot and began grinding my hips to the beat. I lost myself in the music. Freeing my mind of everything that had happened, things that now also were nothing but the past and were no longer in my way. I could definitely move on from this. I need another shot and I was about to go get one when I felt someone place their arms around my waist and grind their hips against mine. Usually I would make my exit but I turned to see who it may be and he almost reminded me of Trevor except he had green eyes. Maybe it was