Before I could finish the fact that I didn’t remember she jumped in like always. I really didn’t expect anything less, "Macy! You didn’t tell me that either. Wait you said he said? You don’t remember?!?" Bingo. She finished my thought for me and waited for my answer with her hand in its normal position. On her hip.
"Dammit Halley no I don’t remember. What the hell else did I do last night? Wait you wouldn’t know you weren’t here! This is your fault you know! You should have come but no you were tired and you wanted to sit home. I need you to promise me something. Please don’t let me drink another drop tonight. I have to make sure they get paid anyway but I also need to make sure nothing like last night happens again tonight. Can you do that for me please? If I want a shot, just put coke or water in the shot glass or something like that." I finally caught my breath. It felt like I didn’t take a single breath during that whole spill. And I probably didn't. But I was dead serious and she could see that as she looked into my green eyes.
"I swear I won’t let you drink another drop. Just don’t get mad at me because I’m just doing what you asked me to. Man what do you think it was like to kiss him?" Her face lit up and she was grinning ear to ear. She may be immune to his charms but like any other woman alive she had no issue with wondering what those lips could possibly feel like. If I had to guess I would say it was like heaven.
"Ugh, I have no idea. I wish I knew though! It’s driving me insane!" Boy, do I wish I remembered. We laughed then walked out the office. I made sure the door was shut. No one ever tried to walk back there but just to be safe I always double checked it. We slowly made our way back out to the bar where the band was on a new song.
The band played a few more songs then took a break. I tried to avoid Trevor at all costs but it just wasn’t possible. The Lounge wasn’t that big of a bar. Gary really needed to think about expanding. It was so weird because I didn’t want Trevor around but I needed him there. Without seeing him, I felt completely lost. He was like fuel to me and I couldn’t explain it. I’d put on this front for so long and with last night’s events coming to my attention reeling through my head I felt I needed to come clean somehow. The remedy hit me like a ton of bricks. I needed to sing again. After all, this was how I expressed myself. I darted towards the DJ booth and whispered my choice. I climbed on stage with confidence and flipped my hair like before the music began and ‘I Try’ by Macy Gray started. I belted it out probably the most sober I’ve ever been when I sang. That was a first. But the song said basically everything I was feeling. This was the only way he’d ever know if he even could see through it. This was the only way I could confess to him that I did like him. Trevor locked glances with me a few times throughout the song but that was it. There was no smiles or anything. When the song ended everyone cheered and Halley and Marcus were kissing. I prayed she would keep her promise. The urge to grab a shot of something was tugging at me and I wanted to resist it so bad. Trevor watched me leave the stage. That was the last time he locked eyes with me then but he didn’t follow this time. There were no smart remarks, no snide comments about singing with him. Instead he went and grabbed a drink and went back to meet his band mates to get ready for their next small set. And I stood there wondering why I even bothered with what I just did.
Part of me hoped he would have approached me again. I waited and he never did. If he would have it was bound to have been amazing. I could picture it now, I would fall into his strong arms or I mean he could hold me and I’d wrap my legs