nice. I miss the old days.”
Leo thought of the night of the hospital, Bea leaning close and saying, “I heard something else.” He had an unexpected urge to bend down and hug her, tell her that whatever she was worried about was going to be okay, reassure her the way she’d done for him that night. As quickly as the odd inclination appeared, it was gone and in its place a flash of annoyance. Anger even. When was she going to grow up? He wasn’t responsible for her, for reading her work anymore. “Okay. I’m looking forward to it. As soon as I can. Probably not this week.”
“No hurry. When you get to it. Really.” She wondered what had just happened. One minute Leo was there and the next he wasn’t. Confused, she stood and kept nodding at him until she started to look like one of those bobble-head dolls of Derek Jeter or the pope.
Definitely stoned, Leo thought. “Do you want to come in?” he asked, impatient.
“No, no. I have to get to work. I just wanted to drop that off.” She sighed, and he thought he saw her shudder. “I went to this party at Celia Baxter’s. Lena Novak was there.”
“Shit. She must be a complete nightmare by now.”
Bea gave a wan smile. “She is such a fucking nightmare you wouldn’t even believe.”
“I believe.”
They both laughed a little and things seemed lighter again, nice. Bea reached into her purse and pulled out a Ziploc bag of cookies. “I stole these from the party,” she said. “The entire platter.”
“I approve,” he said. “Not a Celia Baxter fan either.” Leo had slept with Celia once, years ago, and when he didn’t return her numerous calls, she’d shown up at his office swollen faced and crying and looking as if she hadn’t showered in days.
“Take them,” Bea said, handing him the bag. “I have tons more at home.” She gave him a quick peck on the cheek and headed off toward Flatbush Avenue, waving her hand a little behind her. He closed the door, opened the bag of cookies, and ate two. He took the leather case upstairs and put it on a shelf. He’d get to it after his meeting with Nathan. This week was all about Nathan.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
Behind the wheel of her parked car and in spite of the cold Melody had fallen deeply asleep. She was dreaming about her babies, how solid and steadying their weight was against her chest, on her lap, in her arms. Tap, tap! Tap, tap! Someone in her dream was tapping on a window, wanting to come in. Tap! Tap! Melody jerked awake and as the two figures standing outside the car lowered their grinning faces down to hers, she drew back, embarrassed and confused.
“Too early for naptime!” one of them said. Melody smothered a groan and tried to smile. It was Jane Hamilton, another mother she knew from school, laughing as if she’d just told the world’s most hilarious joke. This she did not need today.
“Save the disco naps for the weekend!” the other woman said. Melody could never remember her name, the one with the oddly shaped curly hair she thought of as the Poodle. Jane and the Poodle were part of a clique (she’d resisted using that word at first but, incredibly, there was no other designation that fit the social stratifications of school parents) who occasionally included Melody in a monthly Mom’s Night Out. The evenings were usually at someone’s house (when Melody would go because the drinks were free) or sometimes at a local bar (when she would not go and hope nobody noted the distinction). Everyone would swill Chardonnay and the conversation would invariably turn into wine-lubricated screeching about sex and how the husbands wanted it too often and bargaining tips for blow jobs.
Melody didn’t want to hear about anyone’s sex life, much less drunk suburban mothers who didn’t even seem to like their spouses—or their children—all that much. Apart from the indecorousness of it all (which horrified her, she would never talk about Walt that way, she would never think about him that way), she thought the women were willfully shallow and tedious. Melody tended to sit through those evenings nearly silent, occasionally laughing along when everyone else laughed or nodding her head in agreement with some of the milder declarations about school: The kids had too much homework; the assistant principal was a bitch; the eleventh-grade English teacher was hot, but definitely gay.
Melody removed her