to go, she couldn’t go there because she still hadn’t gotten her car repaired.
The beaches of Belize no longer beckoned. Only one memory held vibrant in her mind. She’d almost done it with Pete Streeter in his Porsche. She buried her face in her pillow and screamed. She was a slut, no doubt about it. Even worse, she was a dumb slut. Getting involved with Pete Streeter was dumb and would bring her nothing but grief. She groaned. Who was she kidding. She already was involved.
Okay, what could she do about it? The only thing that came to mind was suicide. The more she thought about it, the more appealing it became. The method of death would have to be lingering and pathetic, she decided. She wanted to suffer. She wanted to be an object of pity. Guns were too gory. A knife would be too painful. Pills might make her throw up. She could drive off the Woodrow Wilson Bridge, but first she’d have to rent a car. Hanging didn’t sound like fun. She didn’t want her eyes to bulge out of her head. Starvation was the way to go, she finally concluded. She would simply lay in bed and waste away.
She went back to sleep and awoke again at nine-thirty. She was hungry, but she supposed she had to get used to it if she was going to starve to death. She was examining a crack in her ceiling when she heard someone pounding on her front door. Ignore it, she told herself, but the knocking was relentless. It intruded on her self-indulgent depression. She lurched out of bed and shoved her arms into her robe. She went to the front door and threw it open. It was Pete Streeter.
“Yes?”
He handed her the morning paper and a big white bakery bag and eased past her into her apartment. “I figured you’d be bummed out this morning, so I brought you some doughnuts.”
She stared nonplussed at the bag. Here she was trying to kill herself, and Streeter had brought her doughnuts. Damn.
“So,” she said, “what kind of doughnuts?”
“All kinds. I didn’t know what you liked so I got four of everything.”
“Boston creams?”
“Fresh made this morning. They’re right on top so the icing doesn’t get smeared.”
Okay, she thought, she’d starve to death tomorrow. She had lots of time. There was no rush. She took a Boston cream and chomped off a big bite. Might as well make coffee since she wasn’t going to do the suicide thing, she told herself. She padded into the kitchen and poured some coffee beans into a grinder.
Pete tagged along and slouched in a kitchen chair. Her hair was a mess and her robe was unbelted, revealing a flannel nightgown that would have discouraged a lesser man. He thought she looked great. “You sleep okay?” he asked.
“Yep.”
“I expected you’d be up and dressed by now.”
“I was in the early stages of death by somnolence, but you disturbed me.”
“There’s always tomorrow.”
“Exactly,” she said, finishing off her first doughnut, selecting a second. Maybe she wouldn’t starve to death, she decided. Maybe she’d eat herself into obesity and explode. Death by doughnut.
“Have plans for the day?”
“Nothing past these doughnuts.” She made the coffee, poured two cups, and gave one to Pete.
He took a piece of lined paper from his shirt pocket. “I made a list of things we should do.”
“If any of this involves taking my clothes off, you can forget it.”
“Undressing is optional.”
She looked at the list. “You want me to proofread your rewrites?”
“I can’t spell, and I don’t have time to use the spell check on the computer. Then I want you to systematically call all your Capitol Hill friends and catch up on gossip. Try to steer the conversation around to pigs and Stu Maislin.”
“What are you going to do while I’m gossiping?”
“I’m going back to Pennsylvania. I want to take a look at the pig farm. Then I’m meeting a friend for lunch.”
He downed his coffee and stood. “Horowitz Security is supposed to show up sometime this morning. They’ll be working on both apartments.” He tossed a key onto the table. “This is for my front door.”
He thought about kissing her but decided against it. She didn’t look as if she wanted to be kissed, and she had her mouth full of jelly doughnut. “See you later.”
She had a third doughnut in her hand. “Mmmphf.”
Chapter 6
It was twelve-thirty when Pete pushed his way into the McDonald’s on K Street. Kurt Newfarmer was already there.